07-22-2018, 01:43 PM
This is what I shared with my old sponsor yesterday: vulnerability. He shared he'd send me a TEDTalk video he'd seen recently, and I'm watching it now. Speaking about vulnerability, much less feeling it, is uncomfortable as a man. Seriously, talking about experiences and feeling vulnerable among men rarely happens. Like being vulnerable is feminine. Well, those have been my imagined fears about it.
But in this video she shared one beautiful truth: vulnerability is uncomfortable and shameful when vocalized, but holding it in just increases shame.
I see fear blowing up imagined results before I share, and this is how fear works. But after getting it out, fear has lost its job. Again, fear and shame jab at me before I share something, and.......maybe that's why I'll cry when I do let it out: I've relied on fear most of my life. I held to it to keep me safe, and without it I often don't know if or how I should respond. For fear was all about control. I've just spent most of my life agreeing with it.
Maybe I was wrong.
It happens.
But in this video she shared one beautiful truth: vulnerability is uncomfortable and shameful when vocalized, but holding it in just increases shame.
I see fear blowing up imagined results before I share, and this is how fear works. But after getting it out, fear has lost its job. Again, fear and shame jab at me before I share something, and.......maybe that's why I'll cry when I do let it out: I've relied on fear most of my life. I held to it to keep me safe, and without it I often don't know if or how I should respond. For fear was all about control. I've just spent most of my life agreeing with it.
Maybe I was wrong.
It happens.
I want to be FREE!
