12-13-2018, 01:53 AM
(12-13-2018, 12:52 AM)findingme Wrote: Feeling guilty. Busted. Been thinking about why I've been putting on a face.
I've just felt more aware of my vulnerability, and I've been scared. I've been putting on faces that people would like vs. me being me.
I even just realized writing more now is me trying to...make myself feel better. Just "looking good" feels like shit presently.
I was once a person who put on fake faces just to fit in ,just so that people would like me and accept me. I was so full of shit.
After all these years I ask myself this...
" What the fuk did I get in return by doing that?"
The answer: "Nothing".
Infact being fake did nothing but harm me.
It was all based on "fear" yet disguised in form of "ego". I thought that having is big "ego" was my strength but yet tunred out to be my greatest weakness.
By being original and truthful to my self I have attracted many small opportunities which I could only dream-off.
Keep Going my friend..Keep on Improving..
