01-25-2019, 03:24 PM
(01-25-2019, 11:57 AM)cataleya Wrote: The last 3 weeks have been...disappointing.
Businesswise I feel like I am going nowhere. Doing a little bit of this, a little bit of that. No real direction. Constantly researching stuff, rarely implementing any of it. I feel paralyzed whenever I have to take some sort of significant action towards my business. I realize it`s all in my head but it`s hard to break that barrier. There were some days when night would come and I would be happy to go to sleep. That is not a good sign. The ironic thing is the sleeping doesn`t help because 80% of time I have bad dreams. Last night I dreamt a crowd was staring at me. They had like crazy/zombie eyes. I woke feeling really uncomfortable.
The first 2 months I felt good on this sub. At least most of the time. I was executing the sub. Now it just feels like nothing is happening. Like I have stopped executing. I didn`t even want to write this down in the journal here because I feel so ashamed. But I changed my mind. A lot of others had the courage to write about really personal things so I should too.
The US/LM4 sounds great but unfortunately I really don`t have the money for it right now.
No need to feel ashamed. It sounds like you're coming face to face with more challenges. If you've popped in on my journal you'll see I've been having a hell of a time too.
I'm pretty familiar with that constantly researching stuff mentality. Do you feel like the research has a point of focus? Or does it feel like it's fueled by fear and uncertainty? I know for me that sometimes I get stuck in these loops like "ok just one more thing, then I'll go off on my own". But that need for certainty causes me to question my own judgement and that's when things get screwed up. It takes some redirection, but focusing purely on action helps me. Sometimes the mind has to see what it's capable of vs constantly looking for outside information. I've found that those moments of action where all the research and learning is put to use, is where the actual growth comes from. Otherwise the knowledge has no practical application and it's quickly forgotten.
INFP
