Tune Me Up, Extra Lube - LTU6 5.75G

[RTBoss]

Damn it.  Up at 5 AM, no chance of going back to sleep.  Ugh.  

Woke from a dream where I was with people from my past I'd never associate with now.  One was a girl who was friends with my old roommate/former best friend (fell out years ago due to different paths in life).  Before she got with her boyfriend and became a super-bitch from working at a trashy bar as a bartender, she was actually fun to be around, and I had a small crush on her.  I ended up losing my virginity to her & my other (female) roommate in a threesome.  Anyway, in the dream, she had another boyfriend.  I forget what we were doing, but said boyfriend was unstable.  He started getting aggressive with me, and then he punched me in the face.  He ended up apologizing, and I forgave him, but I didn't forget.  I made up some excuse to get away from him, and stay away.

Took a magnetic clay detox bath last night.  Booked a float spa appointment for today (essentially sensory deprivation in dark tank filled with magnesium-salt saturated water).

Had a good day eating yesterday, lots of healthy stuff that was quite filling/satisfying.  Also had my first physical at my new Internal Medicine doc's office.  Haven't had or seen a doctor since my 20's.  I really like the guy.  I'm in excellent health, so that's good.  Also got my flu shot.

Thinking about going for a jog today before the float session.  I'm sure I'll need a nap after waking at 5 AM, exercising, and relaxing in that float tank.

Tomorrow (or Friday, dunno) I'm hitching a ride w/ SIL & BIL to join my wife & kids out at my MIL/FIL's farm.  Going to wear some fun pheromones for that 4+ hour car ride and enjoy watching the effects.

Start Cycle 4 of Stage 2 tonight.

[Mr_steevee]

Damn it.  Up at 5 AM, no chance of going back to sleep.  Ugh.  

Woke from a dream where I was with people from my past I'd never associate with now.  One was a girl who was friends with my old roommate/former best friend (fell out years ago due to different paths in life).  Before she got with her boyfriend and became a super-bitch from working at a trashy bar as a bartender, she was actually fun to be around, and I had a small crush on her.  I ended up losing my virginity to her & my other (female) roommate in a threesome.  Anyway, in the dream, she had another boyfriend.  I forget what we were doing, but said boyfriend was unstable.  He started getting aggressive with me, and then he punched me in the face.  He ended up apologizing, and I forgave him, but I didn't forget.  I made up some excuse to get away from him, and stay away.

Took a magnetic clay detox bath last night.  Booked a float spa appointment for today (essentially sensory deprivation in dark tank filled with magnesium-salt saturated water).

Had a good day eating yesterday, lots of healthy stuff that was quite filling/satisfying.  Also had my first physical at my new Internal Medicine doc's office.  Haven't had or seen a doctor since my 20's.  I really like the guy.  I'm in excellent health, so that's good.  Also got my flu shot.

Thinking about going for a jog today before the float session.  I'm sure I'll need a nap after waking at 5 AM, exercising, and relaxing in that float tank.

Tomorrow (or Friday, dunno) I'm hitching a ride w/ SIL & BIL to join my wife & kids out at my MIL/FIL's farm.  Going to wear some fun pheromones for that 4+ hour car ride and enjoy watching the effects.

Start Cycle 4 of Stage 2 tonight.

Losing one's virginity in a threesome is pretty epic I would say.

[RTBoss]

Haha, thanks @Mr_steevee - It was certainly memorable!

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[RTBoss]

Wow. We're at my in-laws. Had a birthday party for my MIL & FIL. After dinner, my son asked me how to be funny. There were more than a few "comedians" present. I told him that everyone's different. He wouldn't let it go, so I taught him a few "Dad Jokes." Not even bad ones - good ones!

So he practices with me in another room, and nails them. Excited, he runs to tell the jokes to everyone. This takes fuckin' GUTS. He tells the jokes, FLAWLESSLY. And he gets BOOED. Mind you, he's fucking SIX YEARS OLD. I am LIVID, and not even my wife understands. I gave him two more jokes, which he nailed. Same response. Fucking disgusting. I asked him how it made him feel. He said it made him feel bad . I told him to tell them, and he did. They just discounted his feelings. But, he stood up for himself, and it also gave me an opportunity to tell my son how damn proud of him I am. You bet your ass I am!

[fab10]

Wow.  We're at my in-laws.  Had a birthday party for my MIL & FIL.  After dinner, my son asked me how to be funny.  There were more than a few "comedians" present.  I told him that everyone's different.  He wouldn't let it go, so I taught him a few "Dad Jokes." Not even bad ones - good ones!  

So he practices with me in another room, and nails them.  Excited, he runs to tell the jokes to everyone.  This takes fuckin' GUTS.  He tells the jokes, FLAWLESSLY.  And he gets BOOED.  Mind you, he's fucking SIX YEARS OLD.  I am LIVID, and not even my wife understands.  I gave him two more jokes, which he nailed.  Same response.  Fucking disgusting.  I asked him how it made him feel.  He said it made him feel bad .  I told him to tell them, and he did.  They just discounted his feelings.  But, he stood up for himself, and it also gave me an opportunity to tell my son how damn proud of him I am.  You bet your ass I am!

That’s extraordinarily ass-holish, it’s the kind of experiences that can become old traumas and then require 8 months of E4 to clear 

I think you did great, I wish my father had told me once that he was proud of me. 16 months of E4 for me 

Have your in-laws always been like that? Have you considered talking to them about it? (When your child is not there)

[RTBoss]

That’s extraordinarily ass-holish, it’s the kind of experiences that can become old traumas and then require 8 months of E4 to clear   

I think you did great, I wish my father had told me once that he was proud of me. 16 months of E4 for me 

Have your in-laws always been like that? Have you considered talking to them about it? (When your child is not there)

Thanks for your kind words, @fab10

My in-laws and "their world," has always been much different than mine. In some ways, they're very giving and kind-hearted, but in others, they're some of the most selfish, hypocritical, and insensitive people I've ever met.  It's been work (to put it mildly) trying my best to mesh into their world so we can all harmonize when we're together.

Sorry to hear you never heard, "I'm proud of you," from your dad.  I hear of that in many families, and I don't get it.  Very sad, indeed.  

Feeling much better (emotionally) after sleeping.  I might actually get through being around these people for breakfast and whatnot before leaving for home.  As for dealing with what happened, that will be my wife's arena.  She fiercely defends her family (meaning my in-laws), but when it comes to the kids, she'll put them first and take care of it.  When she has a problem with my family, I handle it, and vice versa.  We think that's the best way to keep everyone from killing each other. 

[THolt]

Wow.  We're at my in-laws.  Had a birthday party for my MIL & FIL.  After dinner, my son asked me how to be funny.  There were more than a few "comedians" present.  I told him that everyone's different.  He wouldn't let it go, so I taught him a few "Dad Jokes." Not even bad ones - good ones!  

So he practices with me in another room, and nails them.  Excited, he runs to tell the jokes to everyone.  This takes fuckin' GUTS.  He tells the jokes, FLAWLESSLY.  And he gets BOOED.  Mind you, he's fucking SIX YEARS OLD.  I am LIVID, and not even my wife understands.  I gave him two more jokes, which he nailed.  Same response.  Fucking disgusting.  I asked him how it made him feel.  He said it made him feel bad .  I told him to tell them, and he did.  They just discounted his feelings.  But, he stood up for himself, and it also gave me an opportunity to tell my son how damn proud of him I am.  You bet your ass I am!

That’s extraordinarily ass-holish, it’s the kind of experiences that can become old traumas and then require 8 months of E4 to clear 

I think you did great, I wish my father had told me once that he was proud of me. 16 months of E4 for me 

Have your in-laws always been like that? Have you considered talking to them about it? (When your child is not there)

That’s why I am running E4 for at least 8 months. My dad constantly criticized me plus my mom died when I was 6 years old.

[RTBoss]

Wow.  We're at my in-laws.  Had a birthday party for my MIL & FIL.  After dinner, my son asked me how to be funny.  There were more than a few "comedians" present.  I told him that everyone's different.  He wouldn't let it go, so I taught him a few "Dad Jokes." Not even bad ones - good ones!  

So he practices with me in another room, and nails them.  Excited, he runs to tell the jokes to everyone.  This takes fuckin' GUTS.  He tells the jokes, FLAWLESSLY.  And he gets BOOED.  Mind you, he's fucking SIX YEARS OLD.  I am LIVID, and not even my wife understands.  I gave him two more jokes, which he nailed.  Same response.  Fucking disgusting.  I asked him how it made him feel.  He said it made him feel bad .  I told him to tell them, and he did.  They just discounted his feelings.  But, he stood up for himself, and it also gave me an opportunity to tell my son how damn proud of him I am.  You bet your ass I am!

That’s extraordinarily ass-holish, it’s the kind of experiences that can become old traumas and then require 8 months of E4 to clear 

I think you did great, I wish my father had told me once that he was proud of me. 16 months of E4 for me 

Have your in-laws always been like that? Have you considered talking to them about it? (When your child is not there)

That’s why I am running E4 for at least 8 months. My dad constantly criticized me plus my mom died when I was 6 years old.

Dang, man, sorry to hear that.  I'm sure that was extremely tough.

Update:  My wife spoke with my MIL/FIL and they both apologized to my son.  We're good.

[Shannon]

That is really hard to believe that they would do.

[ncbeareatingman]

Wow.  We're at my in-laws.  Had a birthday party for my MIL & FIL.  After dinner, my son asked me how to be funny.  There were more than a few "comedians" present.  I told him that everyone's different.  He wouldn't let it go, so I taught him a few "Dad Jokes." Not even bad ones - good ones!  

So he practices with me in another room, and nails them.  Excited, he runs to tell the jokes to everyone.  This takes fuckin' GUTS.  He tells the jokes, FLAWLESSLY.  And he gets BOOED.  Mind you, he's fucking SIX YEARS OLD.  I am LIVID, and not even my wife understands.  I gave him two more jokes, which he nailed.  Same response.  Fucking disgusting.  I asked him how it made him feel.  He said it made him feel bad .  I told him to tell them, and he did.  They just discounted his feelings.  But, he stood up for himself, and it also gave me an opportunity to tell my son how damn proud of him I am.  You bet your ass I am!

That’s extraordinarily ass-holish, it’s the kind of experiences that can become old traumas and then require 8 months of E4 to clear 

I think you did great, I wish my father had told me once that he was proud of me. 16 months of E4 for me 

Have your in-laws always been like that? Have you considered talking to them about it? (When your child is not there)

That’s why I am running E4 for at least 8 months. My dad constantly criticized me plus my mom died when I was 6 years old.

Dang, man, sorry to hear that.  I'm sure that eas extremely tough.

Update:  My wife spoke with my MIL/FIL and they both apologized to my son.  We're good.

 I will respond to all IN MY journal...dont wanna hog your journal nor hi jack it RT. Go Good Dad!! I mean it!! your son is very fortunate!! Understatement!! mean that too!!

[Benjamin]

Dodgy, sadly I know how much things like this can have an effect at a young age. Don't like the sound of your inlaws at all.

Glad you told him you're proud of him, and good that he put himself out there like that. Sucks about the reaction for him.

[AriGold]

Sorry to hear what happened there with your son and your in-laws. The problem with such a thing is, just apologizing does not make it like it never happened. If it had an emotional impact on him, apologizing might help but still might be not enough compared to the incident. But on the other hand it sounds like you were backing him up and sending him a lot of positive energy. So that could have lessened the impact a lot. Daddy is always more important than grandparents.

[RTBoss]

Dodgy, sadly I know how much things like this can have an effect at a young age. Don't like the sound of your inlaws at all.

Glad you told him you're proud of him, and good that he put himself out there like that. Sucks about the reaction for him.

Thanks, Ben.  Yeah, most of us can remember what is was like being a kid having your feelings hurt by people you look up to and love.  The long-term consequences of which are understated by people who have their heads up their asses...

Sorry to hear what happened there with your son and your in-laws. The problem with such a thing is, just apologizing does not make it like it never happened. If it had an emotional impact on him, apologizing might help but still might be not enough compared to the incident. But on the other hand it sounds like you were backing him up and sending him a lot of positive energy. So that could have lessened the impact a lot. Daddy is always more important than grandparents.

Thanks, Ari.  I knew it was important to make sure my son knows that I will always have his back.  At the end of the night, he seemed pretty happy with himself, knowing that I thought he did a great job.

I watched the video I have (yes, this all happened while I was using Snapchat) and saw that my mother-in-law laughed and gave my son a clap on the back - so she wasn't part of it.  But his grandpa and "great uncle" (who is really just my FIL's best friend/MIL's first cousin's husband) were booing and hissing...But, yes, even with the apology, I'm sure my son will bring this up again at some point.  When he does, I'll bolster my son again, as much as he needs.  My FIL is definitely on thin ice with me, and I'll be watching him like a hawk from now on.  My son just wanted to make people laugh like his grandpa and "uncle."  Clearly he looks up to him.  I'm sure I'll find a way to make sure grandpa knows that he needs to make sure my son knows he's proud of him, too.

[Shannon]

Damned good thing he has a dad like you!