05-02-2022, 10:48 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-02-2022, 10:54 AM by DarthXedonias.)
Things are still going great so far. I think so far I am approaching in a few days of 1 month without video games at all and 2 and half weeks without having looked at porn at all. Watching a little bit less youtube (non educational stuff) but think I can do even better in that area so will start clamping down on things in that area. There are some other things I have noticed so far that I should probably report.
I do think I realize now why DMSI wasn't working for me or at least "one" of the reasons. It has to do with why I think the sniper might not have been firing much if at all. So while I've been on this detox I've noticed since then when I notice a decent looking woman in my view I get hyper focused on her and almost have this urge to maybe talk to her. Hell I don't even have shame looking at her directly or out of the corner of my eye because I just will admire her beauty. I just noticed as well my sexual urges would just come to the forefront. I hadn't felt this way when looking at women in real life in a long, long time. After this happening a few times it hit me that I realize this was why the snipers weren't working properly. My mind was warped by looking at porn. One of the effects if you watch too long or often is that real life sexuality doesn't give your mind that "hit" or "urge" as much as watching porn does. After you detox for quite a while your mind starts resetting to base line in a lot of ways and regular women in real life start to appeal to you more.
Due to my brain structure being in an addictive state I started to realize this was probably one of the main reasons why snipers almost never hit very hard for me. I think after I do this 90 day detox (honestly, I think porn wise it is going to be permanent detox) I should be able to get very better results from DMSI which by then the new version will be out anyway. I also know this might be the case because I also just have this knew confidence about myself now. My confidence has just risen in all areas really. I actually truly believe things will go much better this time when I get to running it and also my fear of dating locally is basically gone for the most part. I know the type of women I want and that I do want variety in experiences with different women.
In other things I have noticed that I do want to start investing but I will do so with smaller measured goals and with much patience. Basically I decided I will start trading a basic of crypto currencies and not just a few so I have more variety. Won't say too much about my strategy but I'm doing to go for a much safer and long term strategy instead of going more risky like I used to be. Another decision I came to is I will most definitely get my passport from a European country so I can travel within the EU. To help facilitate this I will first try to get with the top tech companies that allow remote work and I think i will basically be traveling between South America, another country that I will keep to myself and Europe (to which every country I choose to get a citizenship in to keep my residency requirements).
As for more noticed educational benefits my studies are going just fine at the moment. I've just broken things up into more smaller, measurable pieces and am now studying a small part each day over time. I have basically no problem understanding material at all now. Like I'm going back to a class that I didn't do too well in the last term before I made all these changes and now I have absolutely no issue understanding that exact same material. Its like my brain just works differently now. Actually I think I should say I'm probably relying less on the brain and more on the actual "mind" now. Matter of fact I actually had somethin happen today that proved this to a degree. I was working on figuring out a math problem in my head that was related to programming. At some point I knew I was close the answer then something "clicked" in the back in my mind. It was like I went into another altered state where I knew what the answer was before I had "consciously" worked it out. Mind you consciously I hadn't figured it out yet but in the back of my mind something said this was the answer so I started typing out the specific equation and had done it correctly "before" my conscious mind had even caught up to it being the right answer.
That was a very interesting experience and I don't know how to describe it fully. I think I can only describe it as consciously I "knew" my subconscious had already gotten the answer and then I just moved on autopilot to fill it all in before my conscious mind even verified that was the correct answer itself. Honestly, up to this point I had never felt anything like that before. My subconscious already knew the answer and went on auto pilot while my conscious mind was still trying to figure out "why" that might be the right answer and verify that it is.
One final thing I have noticed is that the amount of happiness and joy I experience has increased but so has my will power. I realize now that those addictions I had were zapping my will power and things like video games addiction has been shown to do this. When I thought about this I realized this was why for the longest time the last couple of months I felt this kind of 'stagnation" that was aggravating me. Its was like I had this big desire to make a lot of changes to make my life better but at the same time felt stuck how to improve further, probably being held back by fear and felt like I didn't have the will power to do so. The issue though was the longer I stayed in this stagnation zone as it were the more I found it intolerable. However after getting those major things out of my life its like my will power to get things done is just growing and growing. I actually have the will power and confidence to get things done now without it continually being zapped away by certain addictions I had.
Oh almost forgot to mention, I've also decided that I'm going to start learning the piano in a few months. Always wanted to learn when I was younger but we didn't have the money to do so. So going to get an electric piano and start learning online. Will keep at it for the rest of my life as well. I find it interesting that this desire has resurfaced especially when I realized that there are lots and lots of mental health and brain benefits to learning the piano.
Anyway, that's about everything I needed to update on for now. Things are just going very well and I see my future still being quite bright if not brighter.
I do think I realize now why DMSI wasn't working for me or at least "one" of the reasons. It has to do with why I think the sniper might not have been firing much if at all. So while I've been on this detox I've noticed since then when I notice a decent looking woman in my view I get hyper focused on her and almost have this urge to maybe talk to her. Hell I don't even have shame looking at her directly or out of the corner of my eye because I just will admire her beauty. I just noticed as well my sexual urges would just come to the forefront. I hadn't felt this way when looking at women in real life in a long, long time. After this happening a few times it hit me that I realize this was why the snipers weren't working properly. My mind was warped by looking at porn. One of the effects if you watch too long or often is that real life sexuality doesn't give your mind that "hit" or "urge" as much as watching porn does. After you detox for quite a while your mind starts resetting to base line in a lot of ways and regular women in real life start to appeal to you more.
Due to my brain structure being in an addictive state I started to realize this was probably one of the main reasons why snipers almost never hit very hard for me. I think after I do this 90 day detox (honestly, I think porn wise it is going to be permanent detox) I should be able to get very better results from DMSI which by then the new version will be out anyway. I also know this might be the case because I also just have this knew confidence about myself now. My confidence has just risen in all areas really. I actually truly believe things will go much better this time when I get to running it and also my fear of dating locally is basically gone for the most part. I know the type of women I want and that I do want variety in experiences with different women.
In other things I have noticed that I do want to start investing but I will do so with smaller measured goals and with much patience. Basically I decided I will start trading a basic of crypto currencies and not just a few so I have more variety. Won't say too much about my strategy but I'm doing to go for a much safer and long term strategy instead of going more risky like I used to be. Another decision I came to is I will most definitely get my passport from a European country so I can travel within the EU. To help facilitate this I will first try to get with the top tech companies that allow remote work and I think i will basically be traveling between South America, another country that I will keep to myself and Europe (to which every country I choose to get a citizenship in to keep my residency requirements).
As for more noticed educational benefits my studies are going just fine at the moment. I've just broken things up into more smaller, measurable pieces and am now studying a small part each day over time. I have basically no problem understanding material at all now. Like I'm going back to a class that I didn't do too well in the last term before I made all these changes and now I have absolutely no issue understanding that exact same material. Its like my brain just works differently now. Actually I think I should say I'm probably relying less on the brain and more on the actual "mind" now. Matter of fact I actually had somethin happen today that proved this to a degree. I was working on figuring out a math problem in my head that was related to programming. At some point I knew I was close the answer then something "clicked" in the back in my mind. It was like I went into another altered state where I knew what the answer was before I had "consciously" worked it out. Mind you consciously I hadn't figured it out yet but in the back of my mind something said this was the answer so I started typing out the specific equation and had done it correctly "before" my conscious mind had even caught up to it being the right answer.
That was a very interesting experience and I don't know how to describe it fully. I think I can only describe it as consciously I "knew" my subconscious had already gotten the answer and then I just moved on autopilot to fill it all in before my conscious mind even verified that was the correct answer itself. Honestly, up to this point I had never felt anything like that before. My subconscious already knew the answer and went on auto pilot while my conscious mind was still trying to figure out "why" that might be the right answer and verify that it is.
One final thing I have noticed is that the amount of happiness and joy I experience has increased but so has my will power. I realize now that those addictions I had were zapping my will power and things like video games addiction has been shown to do this. When I thought about this I realized this was why for the longest time the last couple of months I felt this kind of 'stagnation" that was aggravating me. Its was like I had this big desire to make a lot of changes to make my life better but at the same time felt stuck how to improve further, probably being held back by fear and felt like I didn't have the will power to do so. The issue though was the longer I stayed in this stagnation zone as it were the more I found it intolerable. However after getting those major things out of my life its like my will power to get things done is just growing and growing. I actually have the will power and confidence to get things done now without it continually being zapped away by certain addictions I had.
Oh almost forgot to mention, I've also decided that I'm going to start learning the piano in a few months. Always wanted to learn when I was younger but we didn't have the money to do so. So going to get an electric piano and start learning online. Will keep at it for the rest of my life as well. I find it interesting that this desire has resurfaced especially when I realized that there are lots and lots of mental health and brain benefits to learning the piano.
Anyway, that's about everything I needed to update on for now. Things are just going very well and I see my future still being quite bright if not brighter.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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