05-30-2016, 11:01 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-06-2018, 10:55 PM by DarthXedonias.)
Anyway, been on EPHRA 2.0 for a while now and recently had a major breakthrough with a Healing session/Experiment I ran. Gave me really decent results. The abbreviation "Experimental" in this journals title has nothing to do with not following the instructions. Just wanted to make that clear. Anyway, Just wanted to get this Thread up for now but will update it with the details once I get back from work. Take care people!
Update: Ok, I actually got off early from work and am ready to write this. I wasn't going to write anything about this until like a month and a half from now but I've been seeing some curious insights happen. I've even thought not to share any of this given some of the content as you will see but Its been so great over this last week that I wanted to share and also wanted to be complete honest. This will be a very long post so bare with. Also, I want to give a very big disclaimer: By writing this I am not trying to promote or encourage people to use certain drugs that "may" be illegal in your country of residence. I know we have a big amount of members who are from Europe where this certain drug is not illegal in many places but since we still have members in places where it is I wanted to give that disclaimer. On top of that I will not be naming the drug by name, I will simply refer to it by the letter "M" even though by some of my descriptions some of you probably will have figured it out anyway. It will remain that way unless either Ben or Shannon says its ok and doesn't go against any rules to mention the name publicly. Though if People PM me I probably won't be as resistant to divulging that information.
As many of you know that have read my first AM6 journal, I have PTSD that I developed while in the military. I believe I had a much, much lighter version of it before I joined but while in it went "fullblown" you could say. Of course when I got discharged they put it under "adjustment disorder" even though they knew about the nightmares, the suicidal thoughts, the depression, and the sudden outbursts that are characteristic of having this mental disorder. To give you an idea of how this goes is this, someone gets a mental disorder, such as PTSD, while in the military. "Usually", though not always, the people in charge try to discharge you under adjustment disorder because when its labeled as adjustment disorder this means the government doesn't have to pay you medical benefits to try and "fix" you. Basically, the government uses you but if you get mentally "broken" somehow it tosses you away like a piece of trash and doesn't want to pay to have "fix" the damage it did to you.
Either way, I could have disputed that designation after I had gotten out and found out what I 'really" had. The thing that stopped me was the fact that the VA's idea of fixing people with PTSD is to keep rolling them off/on different types of anti-depressants. This was something I didn't want, not to mention I had already noticed and heard about how many people say the anti-depressants just "numb" the pain and even make you have a host of other negative issues. Anyway, fast forward to EPHRA 2.0, which I felt was helping to a degree but even then I noticed that I was getting lots of resistance to it like I was getting to 1.0 even though it was trying to be much "gentler" in its approach to healing. I did notice one thing that I'm pretty certain was very attributable to EPHRA 2.0. I felt like the O.E. in EPHRA 2.0 was pushing me to find a cure to my PTSD. I had looked up ways to do this before but while on EPHRA 2.0 I was pushed very hard and was motivated to get this cured.
I ended up trying a natural herb from west africa with certain psychedelic effects at first. My mind was clear for the first day but slowly but surely it went back to its usual PTSD self. I tried Nootroptics next to see if it would have any benefit along with making EPHRA 2.0 better at clearing out the crap in my mind that was on repeat. Besides a very "slight" change in the way I wasn't as drained from social interactions I didn't really notice anything even though I was taking a pretty good cocktail. Now to get to "M". I had read about "M" being used in a clinical trial to cure 85% of the participants of their PTSD. Apparently this happened many times in the different trials that this organization performed. Right now this company is trying to get "M" legalized in the U.S. for medical uses sometime in 2018 and by the latest of 2021 (These were FDA approved trials). I had read these things for months before but wasn't able to procure "M" until recently from a online source.
Anyway, the trials were in conjunction with psychotherapy sessions. Regular sessions were done once every week and "M" assisted sessions were done once a month (usually 1 to 2 "M" assisted sessions per trial with getting feed back 3 years later). Since I didn't have much faith in psychological sessions (done them before to no affect) and found Shannon's subs to be more potent in that area I decided take "M" and then in the months that follow I would use EPHRA 2.0 to maintain any positive change that happened. That was until I came across some information that changed my plans a "little bit". I came across the fact that "M" seems to Decrease activity in the brain that is known for the "fear" response. This is why it was postulated that "M" helps so much with emotional traumas. The person feels very, very happy and confidant while at the same time their fear response is dormant hence they are able to revisit past memories without the "fear" and see them from a different view. They are then able re-categorize the memory without the fear response and look on the event differently.
This started to have the gears in my head turn. I remember Shannon saying many times that "Fear" is usually the thing that keeps the Subs from working and causes the resistance. This made me think: What if I ran the sub, EPRHA 2.0, while I was under the affects of "M"? Would that make it so that the sub would have no resistance to its suggestions and I would become the embodiment of the script as it were? In combination with this, soon I found out there had been studies done with a combination of a certain drug and Hypnosis. They found that this combination was more effective then either of the two things used alone. On top of that another study found that certain drugs increased the "suggestibility" of hypnosis. I ended up deciding to try this little experiment on top of trying to heal myself.
I won't in much detail of what happened "during" this experiment except for the fact that my mind was obsessed with the sub while on "M". It was like my mind (Conscious) was obcessed with healing itself while on "M" and listening to the sub. I noticed myself saying certain things that seemed exactly like bullet points that are mentioned on the sales page. I should mention that "M" doesn't really have the effects of a psychedelic so I was still conscious during this until I fell asleep later on.
Results: So far I would say my theory was correct. I was a totally different person after I woke up. It took me three days but I noticed that I automatically did "all" the things found on the sales page for EPHRA 2.0. I also noticed surprise that I was able to consciously at will cause the state shifting to happen. I could enter a blissful, happy state without currently listening to the sub. I also noticed the Auto state shifting in play majorly. Anytime something happens that would normally trigger fear (or even guilt and shame) its like I just laugh on the inside. If I customer gets angry at me for messing something up its like instead of feeling any of those emotions or even anger I just laugh on the inside at their stupidity for overreacting over something small. I haven't gotten "actually" angry this whole (week or week/half) since I've done the experiment. To me anger just seems so stupid now. Why not just laugh at those situations and get on with my life.
I've kept using the sub but haven't really seen any increase in results. I feel like its just cementing whats already there which I plan on to keep doing until about the 30 day mark just to make sure gains are cemented in. Then I'm probably going to move on to AM6 refresher. I have noticed a couple of things though while still using the sub:
(1) It makes me go into a deep sleep around bed time and wake up groggy every time now. Whereas before it would only do it once in a while.
(2) I pretty much get lucid dreams every time or every other time now.
(3) The dreams are more "comprehensible" now. I can actually interpret them pretty easily without any guess work. Its like I "know" what their meaning is now without a doubt.
Usually the dreams are about the "former" me and why I thought the way I did. For example, just this morning I woke up from a lucid dream where I was playing Mercenaries mode on Resident evil 5. I wasn't actually playing it but sort of watching myself as if it were real going through a certain level. I kept on dieing and failing over and over early on in the stage. I woke up after I died after getting pretty far. I woke up and thought about the meaning for only 1 min then its like it came like a whisper in my mind. My fear of failure and my holding myself to some "perfectionist" standard. I realized that the reason I held myself to such a standard was because of fear. Fear of how others would see my failure and how they would mock and ridicule me. How humiliated I would feel. Of course that was the old me, the new me doesn't care and doesn't really feel any shame when making a mistake. Pretty much Shame and guilt have been extinguished from me. Fear still tries to make a comeback but the auto state shift takes care of it so it can't. Through all this, Its like my subconscious is telling me why the old me was the way it was.
Anyway, I could go on and on about the changes but I think I will leave that for when I post the bullet points for the program tomorrow though I will still be running it until sometime mid June in order to make sure the instructions are cemented. I just want to thank Shannon for making this sub because it finally feels great to be able have that weight lifted off of me and maybe even be more emotionally stable than most people around me now. If anyone has any other questions I will try to ask to the best of my ability whether here or in PM. Some might not agree with the experiment I ran due to the "M" component involved. I can understand and if by someway I violated some rule and either Shannon/or Ben want me to delete this Thread I will. As for regrets though, after surviving a mental disorder that usually has a 50% suicide rate, I don't really regret doing this.
P.S. Forgot to mention that I also quit all porn and online video games. I saw them for what they were, holding me back pretty much. Also, hope you guys don't mind any grammar errors.. way too lazy after work to proof read this before I post. See ya guys soon. Take care!
Update: Ok, I actually got off early from work and am ready to write this. I wasn't going to write anything about this until like a month and a half from now but I've been seeing some curious insights happen. I've even thought not to share any of this given some of the content as you will see but Its been so great over this last week that I wanted to share and also wanted to be complete honest. This will be a very long post so bare with. Also, I want to give a very big disclaimer: By writing this I am not trying to promote or encourage people to use certain drugs that "may" be illegal in your country of residence. I know we have a big amount of members who are from Europe where this certain drug is not illegal in many places but since we still have members in places where it is I wanted to give that disclaimer. On top of that I will not be naming the drug by name, I will simply refer to it by the letter "M" even though by some of my descriptions some of you probably will have figured it out anyway. It will remain that way unless either Ben or Shannon says its ok and doesn't go against any rules to mention the name publicly. Though if People PM me I probably won't be as resistant to divulging that information.
As many of you know that have read my first AM6 journal, I have PTSD that I developed while in the military. I believe I had a much, much lighter version of it before I joined but while in it went "fullblown" you could say. Of course when I got discharged they put it under "adjustment disorder" even though they knew about the nightmares, the suicidal thoughts, the depression, and the sudden outbursts that are characteristic of having this mental disorder. To give you an idea of how this goes is this, someone gets a mental disorder, such as PTSD, while in the military. "Usually", though not always, the people in charge try to discharge you under adjustment disorder because when its labeled as adjustment disorder this means the government doesn't have to pay you medical benefits to try and "fix" you. Basically, the government uses you but if you get mentally "broken" somehow it tosses you away like a piece of trash and doesn't want to pay to have "fix" the damage it did to you.
Either way, I could have disputed that designation after I had gotten out and found out what I 'really" had. The thing that stopped me was the fact that the VA's idea of fixing people with PTSD is to keep rolling them off/on different types of anti-depressants. This was something I didn't want, not to mention I had already noticed and heard about how many people say the anti-depressants just "numb" the pain and even make you have a host of other negative issues. Anyway, fast forward to EPHRA 2.0, which I felt was helping to a degree but even then I noticed that I was getting lots of resistance to it like I was getting to 1.0 even though it was trying to be much "gentler" in its approach to healing. I did notice one thing that I'm pretty certain was very attributable to EPHRA 2.0. I felt like the O.E. in EPHRA 2.0 was pushing me to find a cure to my PTSD. I had looked up ways to do this before but while on EPHRA 2.0 I was pushed very hard and was motivated to get this cured.
I ended up trying a natural herb from west africa with certain psychedelic effects at first. My mind was clear for the first day but slowly but surely it went back to its usual PTSD self. I tried Nootroptics next to see if it would have any benefit along with making EPHRA 2.0 better at clearing out the crap in my mind that was on repeat. Besides a very "slight" change in the way I wasn't as drained from social interactions I didn't really notice anything even though I was taking a pretty good cocktail. Now to get to "M". I had read about "M" being used in a clinical trial to cure 85% of the participants of their PTSD. Apparently this happened many times in the different trials that this organization performed. Right now this company is trying to get "M" legalized in the U.S. for medical uses sometime in 2018 and by the latest of 2021 (These were FDA approved trials). I had read these things for months before but wasn't able to procure "M" until recently from a online source.
Anyway, the trials were in conjunction with psychotherapy sessions. Regular sessions were done once every week and "M" assisted sessions were done once a month (usually 1 to 2 "M" assisted sessions per trial with getting feed back 3 years later). Since I didn't have much faith in psychological sessions (done them before to no affect) and found Shannon's subs to be more potent in that area I decided take "M" and then in the months that follow I would use EPHRA 2.0 to maintain any positive change that happened. That was until I came across some information that changed my plans a "little bit". I came across the fact that "M" seems to Decrease activity in the brain that is known for the "fear" response. This is why it was postulated that "M" helps so much with emotional traumas. The person feels very, very happy and confidant while at the same time their fear response is dormant hence they are able to revisit past memories without the "fear" and see them from a different view. They are then able re-categorize the memory without the fear response and look on the event differently.
This started to have the gears in my head turn. I remember Shannon saying many times that "Fear" is usually the thing that keeps the Subs from working and causes the resistance. This made me think: What if I ran the sub, EPRHA 2.0, while I was under the affects of "M"? Would that make it so that the sub would have no resistance to its suggestions and I would become the embodiment of the script as it were? In combination with this, soon I found out there had been studies done with a combination of a certain drug and Hypnosis. They found that this combination was more effective then either of the two things used alone. On top of that another study found that certain drugs increased the "suggestibility" of hypnosis. I ended up deciding to try this little experiment on top of trying to heal myself.
I won't in much detail of what happened "during" this experiment except for the fact that my mind was obsessed with the sub while on "M". It was like my mind (Conscious) was obcessed with healing itself while on "M" and listening to the sub. I noticed myself saying certain things that seemed exactly like bullet points that are mentioned on the sales page. I should mention that "M" doesn't really have the effects of a psychedelic so I was still conscious during this until I fell asleep later on.
Results: So far I would say my theory was correct. I was a totally different person after I woke up. It took me three days but I noticed that I automatically did "all" the things found on the sales page for EPHRA 2.0. I also noticed surprise that I was able to consciously at will cause the state shifting to happen. I could enter a blissful, happy state without currently listening to the sub. I also noticed the Auto state shifting in play majorly. Anytime something happens that would normally trigger fear (or even guilt and shame) its like I just laugh on the inside. If I customer gets angry at me for messing something up its like instead of feeling any of those emotions or even anger I just laugh on the inside at their stupidity for overreacting over something small. I haven't gotten "actually" angry this whole (week or week/half) since I've done the experiment. To me anger just seems so stupid now. Why not just laugh at those situations and get on with my life.
I've kept using the sub but haven't really seen any increase in results. I feel like its just cementing whats already there which I plan on to keep doing until about the 30 day mark just to make sure gains are cemented in. Then I'm probably going to move on to AM6 refresher. I have noticed a couple of things though while still using the sub:
(1) It makes me go into a deep sleep around bed time and wake up groggy every time now. Whereas before it would only do it once in a while.
(2) I pretty much get lucid dreams every time or every other time now.
(3) The dreams are more "comprehensible" now. I can actually interpret them pretty easily without any guess work. Its like I "know" what their meaning is now without a doubt.
Usually the dreams are about the "former" me and why I thought the way I did. For example, just this morning I woke up from a lucid dream where I was playing Mercenaries mode on Resident evil 5. I wasn't actually playing it but sort of watching myself as if it were real going through a certain level. I kept on dieing and failing over and over early on in the stage. I woke up after I died after getting pretty far. I woke up and thought about the meaning for only 1 min then its like it came like a whisper in my mind. My fear of failure and my holding myself to some "perfectionist" standard. I realized that the reason I held myself to such a standard was because of fear. Fear of how others would see my failure and how they would mock and ridicule me. How humiliated I would feel. Of course that was the old me, the new me doesn't care and doesn't really feel any shame when making a mistake. Pretty much Shame and guilt have been extinguished from me. Fear still tries to make a comeback but the auto state shift takes care of it so it can't. Through all this, Its like my subconscious is telling me why the old me was the way it was.
Anyway, I could go on and on about the changes but I think I will leave that for when I post the bullet points for the program tomorrow though I will still be running it until sometime mid June in order to make sure the instructions are cemented. I just want to thank Shannon for making this sub because it finally feels great to be able have that weight lifted off of me and maybe even be more emotionally stable than most people around me now. If anyone has any other questions I will try to ask to the best of my ability whether here or in PM. Some might not agree with the experiment I ran due to the "M" component involved. I can understand and if by someway I violated some rule and either Shannon/or Ben want me to delete this Thread I will. As for regrets though, after surviving a mental disorder that usually has a 50% suicide rate, I don't really regret doing this.
P.S. Forgot to mention that I also quit all porn and online video games. I saw them for what they were, holding me back pretty much. Also, hope you guys don't mind any grammar errors.. way too lazy after work to proof read this before I post. See ya guys soon. Take care!
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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. On top of this I have cut out all sweets/deserts and sodas out of my diet.
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