08-16-2010, 12:39 PM
(08-16-2010, 07:17 AM)K-Train Wrote: http://subliminal-talk.com/showthread.php?tid=254 That link should explain everything cortez.
Anyway, it's Day 5 on Alpha Set, and lately I'm noticing how intolerable I am torwards my dad. Now to be honest, I respect both my parents because they are allowing me to stay here during college rent free so I can't complain, but I've noticed that I have become irritated with the way my dad handles business around the house. Technically, I feel this way off and on sometimes but now it seems stronger. In fact one word that keeps flashing in my head is "weak", "weak", "weak". And I've started to become intolerant of his sarcasm when I told him I was going to get a new job.
Another thing was this girl that I used to be very close to called me today. We had a very close relationship but nothing ever happened sexually because I was put off by her ways. The thing is, I always used to have feelings for her but now I feel extremely cold towards her emotionally. In fact, I feel cold toward women in general, but not in a "I hate you" way, more of in a "I don't need to rely on you" way.
Some similarity in the last thing (I live on my own not socializing with my family, so I cannot compare with the first).
I feel cold and unwilling to take care of women's emotions.
And I love it.......evil grin.


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. There have been times where negativity popped up like "your a try-hard, they hate you, they don't want to talk to you" but instead of caring, I said f#ck it, I don't care, and continued about my day. For the most part, I've been pretty happy-go-lucky and while I have been feeling a little anxiety towards some of my classes, I think the Alpha Set has eased them out a bit.