05-16-2016, 09:16 AM
One more week to go with stage 3. From the news I broke up with my kinda sorta girlfriend. She broke my trust (she had sleep-over with friend she knew I'm jealous of, I don't think she cheated on me but still she showed no respect to me and my feelings) and though I was mad at first I'm in this strange sense of empowerment now. The reason is simple: because of her I stopped pursuing my alpha goals. She was my first girlfriend so I tried to approach her beta way, with care and respect, but it didn't work. Why it didn't work is another issue (mainly due to my own fears and differences in character), but that experience was priceless. I will give myself a week to get used to being single and emotionally free again and I'll start my alpha training with stage 4. I will start some project now, like exercising and diet (which I stopped due to stress and mental fatigue), but I'll wait with other stuff so that I can approach the topic with clear mind.
Will I go back to her one day if opportunity arises? Maybe, but only as a different man.
Will I go back to her one day if opportunity arises? Maybe, but only as a different man.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
