The Adventures of the Mystic Pymp (currently AM6 second run)

[Mystic Pymp]

I think there is 2 extreme like everything in life. The guys who is overly romantic,who think that everything is a dream, every girl is an angel, etc. And there is the guys who thinks every girl is a bitch and isn't worth anything. Like always I think the reality is in the middle neither too romantic dreamer neither overly pessimistic.

I am definitively the first type, but not only to women. I try to seek good and beauty in everyone. Maybe I'm being optimistic, but I think thinking everyone is a bitch or a jerk and the Universe hates me is simply wrong. I'd rather seek fault in myself and try to fix it (and trust me, I've made great progress last two years, but have still a lot to work on) rather than cast blame on others. Don't get me wrong, the are bad people on this Earth, but there are good too, and it's still better to assure the latter.

As to romantic stuff, I think it comes from my lack of experience with girls and this fantasy I have. You see I've pretty much wasted my high school years: when others had their first loves I was playing video games and jerking off. It will probably never come back, but still I'd wish to have this. And who knows, maybe I will, but it's certainly not something I can force or wish away. Only time will tell what awaits me.

I've been reading "The Unchained Man" recently, surely most of you remember that book. It's my second read actually, first one was circa a year ago during my first AM run. It's funny as I remember my feelings about it back then. I was thinking that there is value in that book, but the author is very bitter and tries to fuck his way through the life as his marriage didn't work. Now, maybe due to my experiences throughout last year or due to subs, I think he's mostly right. The problem is that while my logical brain says "yes", my emotional brain still tries to hold on to old ideals.