Tao's Journal (Multiple Subs)

[Tao374]

I started LTU 4.0 67 days ago and stitched to 5.0 between cycles when it was released. The last couple of weeks I haven't noticed a lot but something interesting has started to come to the surface the last few days. I have always been an extremely driven/competitive person which I would mostly consider being a good thing. However, I'm not sure my heart has been in the right place. My drive often alienates myself from others and at times I can become easily jealous of other success. The last couple of weeks I feel like I have been resisting a change involving seeing the rest of the world as other individuals that are also struggling and need help instead of my competition. I feel like something very deep is starting to shift inside of my heart. It is still somewhat subtle like maybe 15% though the shift. This change seems very important as I'm having visions of how could impact my life. I see myself becoming more connected with the world and obtaining my goals faster by working with the currents of life instead of against them by over striving. This seems like it is going to apply to both my financial and relationship goals. It seems like I have been trying so hard for so long but not really reaping the full benefits of my labor and this is because I felt separation, doubt and lack inside of myself from what I desired. I'm really hoping this change keeps unfolding in the ways I hope it can when I'm not resisting it.