Ok so I'm pretty sure I've ruined this run of am6. But I think I like where I'm at right now. I'm not happy with my life but I'm satisfied with the way I'm handling the situations I'm in.
I made it halfway through stage 3 then I had some issues with getting exposure. Deciding not to play it sometimes because I needed my full mental abilities for school the next day and then forgetting to play it on other days. I've gone about 2 weeks without playing it and then accidentally played stage 4 for 2 days.
I'm considering just leaving am6 now and take a break from subs
I've been evaluating my life and what I truly want. I believe that I've always been playing a role and acting a certain way because I thought it was what I had to do to get what I wanted. But now I know that I can't have what I wanted because it wasn't real, it was an ideal that I believed I could have.
I'm having some identity crisis. Doing things I never wanted to do, never thought I would ever do. I feel so cold and unattached from everything. Sometimes I pursue girls a little and as soon as I realize I'm making progress with them I pull away because I don't trust them and I'm secretly afraid to have feelings for someone because it gives them too much power over me and I lose control of myself.
Basically I'm just living my life. Doing what I want, when I want, but I'm just a little lonely. Although I'd probably feel even better if I was having sex once in a while, but the whole feelings thing is getting in the way.
I made it halfway through stage 3 then I had some issues with getting exposure. Deciding not to play it sometimes because I needed my full mental abilities for school the next day and then forgetting to play it on other days. I've gone about 2 weeks without playing it and then accidentally played stage 4 for 2 days.
I'm considering just leaving am6 now and take a break from subs
I've been evaluating my life and what I truly want. I believe that I've always been playing a role and acting a certain way because I thought it was what I had to do to get what I wanted. But now I know that I can't have what I wanted because it wasn't real, it was an ideal that I believed I could have.
I'm having some identity crisis. Doing things I never wanted to do, never thought I would ever do. I feel so cold and unattached from everything. Sometimes I pursue girls a little and as soon as I realize I'm making progress with them I pull away because I don't trust them and I'm secretly afraid to have feelings for someone because it gives them too much power over me and I lose control of myself.
Basically I'm just living my life. Doing what I want, when I want, but I'm just a little lonely. Although I'd probably feel even better if I was having sex once in a while, but the whole feelings thing is getting in the way.
