11-08-2021, 11:34 AM
So I made the jump and decided to take a break from UMS2 to run ERPHAv5. I've been going through a lot in life recently and I've been trying to heal and improve myself as much as possible.
Ive been feeling a little burned out on self help and motivation things and thought that maybe this would be able to get me over the hump.
I've been doing a lot of positive mindset work and meditations. Self worth, Mindfulness, stoicism, embracing all parts of myself. Forgiveness for myself, my past and my mistakes. I haven't taken too much in the form of real tangible action.
I have a lot of guilt shame and fear especially surrounding women and sex which has had negative effects on all my relationships. I believe I'm a typical "nice guy" as described as Dr Glover. Always trying to be nice to get what I want instead of taking responsibility for my needs. And getting upset when my needs don't get met.
I have difficulty expressing emotions and dealing with tense situations. In difficult situations I tend to freeze up, physically and mentally. My fight or flight response is all flight. I literally feel my thoughts go blank and my body tense up.
Anyways enough self description of how much I need to work on.
I don't know if I'll be running this sub for the full 8 months recommended. But I'll for sure give it at least a month or two.
Ive been feeling a little burned out on self help and motivation things and thought that maybe this would be able to get me over the hump.
I've been doing a lot of positive mindset work and meditations. Self worth, Mindfulness, stoicism, embracing all parts of myself. Forgiveness for myself, my past and my mistakes. I haven't taken too much in the form of real tangible action.
I have a lot of guilt shame and fear especially surrounding women and sex which has had negative effects on all my relationships. I believe I'm a typical "nice guy" as described as Dr Glover. Always trying to be nice to get what I want instead of taking responsibility for my needs. And getting upset when my needs don't get met.
I have difficulty expressing emotions and dealing with tense situations. In difficult situations I tend to freeze up, physically and mentally. My fight or flight response is all flight. I literally feel my thoughts go blank and my body tense up.
Anyways enough self description of how much I need to work on.
I don't know if I'll be running this sub for the full 8 months recommended. But I'll for sure give it at least a month or two.