Superman's DMSI v3+ journal

[Superman]

I've also realized something lately. I don't like my parents much and I don't want them to be proud of me. So I sabotage myself in that way too.

I've noticed that whenever they want me to do something, even if it was something I wanted to do myself, I no longer want to do it anymore.

[Superman]

Ok so after roughly a week of listening to DMSI 3.1A for about 6-16 hours per day I've noticed some changes. I have ultrasonic playing on repeat on my laptop so as long as I'm there I'm getting exposure

-I feel an urge to organize my life
-urge to get in shape
- an increase in IDGAF attitude
- increase in confidence
-vivid dreams have returned after being gone for months
- I've also surprisingly haven't felt the urge to master bated, or at least I'm trying to break the habit now. 3 days I think

[Superman]

Broke my laptop, not sure if it can be repaired

Can't run subs 24/7 non stop anymore

I don't like using my phone to listen to subs, especially at night. Ear buds don't stay in while I sleep and my speaker is messed up

Might take some time off to experience the bloom

In the mean while I guess I'll be looking at laptops and sound equipment for my room.

[Superman]

With all these focus fire subs Shannon's making. If each of them is added to DMSI in some way it might hit version 4.0 and still be a test sub lol.

I want it badly, but I'm patiently waiting. I just hope the next update is substantial

[CatMan]

I've said it before, but I feel it could be until V5-V6 to work like the sales page, I hear you! It seems so far away still, unrealistic to expect it to work like the sales page within the next 3 versions. Not fair given how it's performing now. Design goal still seems impossible to me, I'll need to see it to believe it, given how girls have been with me my whole life.

The delays have been horrendous. I feel it's a big reason why the forum has quieted down and people haven't been around. I don't know what happened to the poll Shannon made where a crushing majority voted for V3.2 to be released next. Seems it's everything in the world being made BUT V3.2 now, in spite of the poll. The tally may be up to 10 programs made since V3.1 by the time it releases if you count the next couple and this work sub thing. I find it unlikely absolutely nothing could've been done in any way in all this time since V3.1 debuted with DMSI. Especially since he has a large list of suggestions from testers, back when we had a bunch of users for DMSI and an active forum that is. I mean, even a couple SMALL updates to show publicly the program is still a real priority and to reward the faith and support both financially and otherwise from people. Would've gone a long way to fix these problems. To have absolutely nothing for so long, and tons of other programs made, and varying reasons why it isn't being worked on over time, it makes people give up on it and move on.

Regardless, the rubber needs to hit the road at some point. For so long we've heard the hyperbole about potency and ability, but it hasn't translated into results in reality. Here's hoping that all the massive delays have at least this time, translated into REAL potency like Shannon has said it has recently. We'll have to see, but it always seems like I'm waiting for the next version for things to work, over time I become skeptical about whether that will change or not.

[Superman]

Yeah I agree, but regardless I keep running 3.1 A/B switching between them every so often

[CatMan]

Good idea.

I've really wanted to stick to at least the clearing and healing, I know I need it given my past with girls. Thinking it's better than nothing, because I feel that since execution is so low on A, I doubt B would be any better, obviously.

May be something to think about again. Haven't ran B in a long time, decided to convince myself to lower my expectations for the program and just take the possible clearing and healing.

[Kol]

A and B are almost different programs to me and I switch also between them. Healing on A for me can result in an sense of stalemate at times, with B being a sort of kickstart which gives new perspectives, which in turn can leverage over to A. Sort of "snap out effect".

Also, my last run of B gave me a whole different outlook. I ran A for a long time, eventually decided to give B a shot agsin, and it went ham. Perhaps through B you give the subc some sort of break as the it has pure execution to it without the healing and clearing, thus shufting slightly priorities.

I wonder what Shannon has to say about this.

Just my 2 cents.

[CatMan]

It's possible it could do something. I've just struggled to see any kind of "real" execution on A, let alone going over to B. So I figured I'd just dig in, relax the pressure for "results", and go long term with A. I really know I need a lot of clearing and healing anyway so if I don't get any attraction/"aura"/"manifestation" that I can count on the C&H at least was my thinking. Which probably helps me get my loops in still nowadays at times I bet, the thought that I know I'm at least getting the chance of C&H on A! It was weird, but when I ran B, it was like blankness, reminded me of my SM3 run, just "nothing", like I didn't even have a sub going. Must have totally shut it down, just like with SM3. So I decided then to just take the long term route, revise my expectations of the sub, and focus on A and get the clearing and healing I know I need anyway.

I appreciate the time and post, Kol. It may be worth thinking about, as that's been awhile now since the B run.

[Superman]

Switched to 3.1B. Did as many loops as possible since 10pm-3am. B got me messed up. Had like 3 different dreams. One about my job, one about my family and one about my ex. somehow woke up and turned the loops off without realizing it and went back to sleep. Had crazy brain fog.

[Superman]

Got a new speaker and used it to play subs last night. Felt the effects a lot more.

Forums are getting a little annoying. I won't be frequenting it as much anymore. I just don't find it interesting anymore and Shannon's setbacks are expected now.

I'm not criticizing, I'm just getting tired

Sub effect wise I feel like it's really lining things up for me. I can really see how a person with a little self motivation and game can have a lot of results from this.

I've had a gf the whole time running dmsi and I feel like I've let oppounities go because of that. Lately I feel like I have several potential options ready to go if I were to become single. Never really experienced that kind of situation before.

[Superman]

First update on DMSI 3.2
Day 2:

Not enjoying it so far. Day 1(trickling stream FLAC) was quite uneventful but I started feeling a little down. Urge to masturbate down. Urge to watch porn down. Nothing really in the way of attention or abnormal behaviour from anyone. Got hit by a wave of tiredness halfway though listening and just fell asleep completely.

Day 2(ultrasonic mp3) , I'm now feeling quite down and depressed. A lot of memories of the past are coming up. Bitterness and jealousy towards females and my life because while I was waiting for love and believed that girls were good and pure. They were actually out fucking all the other guys while I was lonely and desperate for any female attention. A little bitterness and disappointed in my life thus far how it's turned out and where it's heading. Also some bitter feelings about my gf having a fwb when she was in high school who's still her best friend now. I just can't shake the feelings I have right now. So day 2 so far while it's not over just yet is not going well.

I really want to be over my feelings of having wasted my youth and be over the past. That alone would lift a huge weight off my chest and my life. You can't be positive about the future if you're always thinking about your negative past.

[Superman]

I realized it really has more to do with my core belief that everything has to be fair. I know in reality thats not true, but somehow it got ingrained in me that everything has to be fair. And I just feel like it wasn't fair that I missed out on experiencing anything in my youth.

[DarthXedonias]

First update on DMSI 3.2
Day 2:

Not enjoying it so far. Day 1(trickling stream FLAC) was quite uneventful but I started feeling a little down. Urge to masturbate down. Urge to watch porn down. Nothing really in the way of attention or abnormal behaviour from anyone. Got hit by a wave of tiredness halfway though listening and just fell asleep completely.

Day 2(ultrasonic mp3) , I'm now feeling quite down and depressed. A lot of memories of the past are coming up. Bitterness and jealousy towards females and my life because while I was waiting for love and believed that girls were good and pure. They were actually out ***** all the other guys while I was lonely and desperate for any female attention. A little bitterness and disappointed in my life thus far how it's turned out and where it's heading. Also some bitter feelings about my gf having a fwb when she was in high school who's still her best friend now. I just can't shake the feelings I have right now. So day 2 so far while it's not over just yet is not going well.

I really want to be over my feelings of having wasted my youth and be over the past. That alone would lift a huge weight off my chest and my life. You can't be positive about the future if you're always thinking about your negative past.

Dude, I'm feeling somewhat the same way. Though I would add I'm probably feeling mainly anger, yes, but primarily hatred at the moment. I'm also realizing a few things Mr.Anderson said in his journal. I have a feeling as to what is going on and might write about it later but like you not quite feeling this sub at the moment.