Superman's DMSI v3+ journal

[DarthXedonias]

First update on DMSI 3.2
Day 2:

Not enjoying it so far. Day 1(trickling stream FLAC) was quite uneventful but I started feeling a little down. Urge to masturbate down. Urge to watch porn down. Nothing really in the way of attention or abnormal behaviour from anyone. Got hit by a wave of tiredness halfway though listening and just fell asleep completely.

Day 2(ultrasonic mp3) , I'm now feeling quite down and depressed. A lot of memories of the past are coming up. Bitterness and jealousy towards females and my life because while I was waiting for love and believed that girls were good and pure. They were actually out ***** all the other guys while I was lonely and desperate for any female attention. A little bitterness and disappointed in my life thus far how it's turned out and where it's heading. Also some bitter feelings about my gf having a fwb when she was in high school who's still her best friend now. I just can't shake the feelings I have right now. So day 2 so far while it's not over just yet is not going well.

I really want to be over my feelings of having wasted my youth and be over the past. That alone would lift a huge weight off my chest and my life. You can't be positive about the future if you're always thinking about your negative past.

Dude, I'm feeling somewhat the same way. Though I would add I'm probably feeling mainly anger, yes, but primarily hatred at the moment. I'm also realizing a few things Mr.Anderson said in his journal. I have a feeling as to what is going on and might write about it later but like you not quite feeling this sub at the moment.