02-25-2018, 06:45 AM
First update on DMSI 3.2
Day 2:
Not enjoying it so far. Day 1(trickling stream FLAC) was quite uneventful but I started feeling a little down. Urge to masturbate down. Urge to watch porn down. Nothing really in the way of attention or abnormal behaviour from anyone. Got hit by a wave of tiredness halfway though listening and just fell asleep completely.
Day 2(ultrasonic mp3) , I'm now feeling quite down and depressed. A lot of memories of the past are coming up. Bitterness and jealousy towards females and my life because while I was waiting for love and believed that girls were good and pure. They were actually out fucking all the other guys while I was lonely and desperate for any female attention. A little bitterness and disappointed in my life thus far how it's turned out and where it's heading. Also some bitter feelings about my gf having a fwb when she was in high school who's still her best friend now. I just can't shake the feelings I have right now. So day 2 so far while it's not over just yet is not going well.
I really want to be over my feelings of having wasted my youth and be over the past. That alone would lift a huge weight off my chest and my life. You can't be positive about the future if you're always thinking about your negative past.
Day 2:
Not enjoying it so far. Day 1(trickling stream FLAC) was quite uneventful but I started feeling a little down. Urge to masturbate down. Urge to watch porn down. Nothing really in the way of attention or abnormal behaviour from anyone. Got hit by a wave of tiredness halfway though listening and just fell asleep completely.
Day 2(ultrasonic mp3) , I'm now feeling quite down and depressed. A lot of memories of the past are coming up. Bitterness and jealousy towards females and my life because while I was waiting for love and believed that girls were good and pure. They were actually out fucking all the other guys while I was lonely and desperate for any female attention. A little bitterness and disappointed in my life thus far how it's turned out and where it's heading. Also some bitter feelings about my gf having a fwb when she was in high school who's still her best friend now. I just can't shake the feelings I have right now. So day 2 so far while it's not over just yet is not going well.
I really want to be over my feelings of having wasted my youth and be over the past. That alone would lift a huge weight off my chest and my life. You can't be positive about the future if you're always thinking about your negative past.
