08-18-2018, 01:11 AM
Just feeling negative and down, it's more of a challenge to just feel netural. If I stopped this subliminal I know for a fact I would feel million times better.
If I'm being honest, I am starting to think that Shannon's subliminals don't actually work for me, I am not compatible with them, as all they seem to do is make me feel like shit.
When I think back, none of them have helped change my life. The times when I have is when I was not using subs and using emotional based visualization.
You manifest what you feel majority of the time. If my response to US/LM is feeling opposite of feeling good, don't see how I can manifest good feeling things.
After DMSI, I thought this "non experimental subliminal" would be different.
Am I insane? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result?
I seriously don't think anything outside myself can help me.
I can't get myself to get a part-time job, something that should be so simple.
I had thoughts come up the other day of why I can't make myself get a job:
I am different, I don't fit into society, working out there and getting a job is "normal", I am not normal.
If I got a job I would have to pretend to be someone else. Someone that gives a fuk about things I don't give a fuk about.
I just don't give a fuk, why would someone want to hire someone who don't give a fuk.
I have a history of quiting most jobs I have had, so I can't use any for a reference.
I am worried about getting a job and feeling negative emotions, trapped, slaving my life away....which will make me contemplate the pointless existence of human life to just come here and work, doing things we don't want to do.
I don't like doing what other people want me to do
I like being honest and even to a authority figure, my honesty could easily lose my job
I am my own boss, even if I am not! People won't like that, so I would have to be different. I would have to change to please other people...
So how am I meant to get through this stuff? If it feels like this is who I am?
Just so I can get myself to get a part-time job?
If I'm being honest, I am starting to think that Shannon's subliminals don't actually work for me, I am not compatible with them, as all they seem to do is make me feel like shit.
When I think back, none of them have helped change my life. The times when I have is when I was not using subs and using emotional based visualization.
You manifest what you feel majority of the time. If my response to US/LM is feeling opposite of feeling good, don't see how I can manifest good feeling things.
After DMSI, I thought this "non experimental subliminal" would be different.
Am I insane? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result?
I seriously don't think anything outside myself can help me.
I can't get myself to get a part-time job, something that should be so simple.
I had thoughts come up the other day of why I can't make myself get a job:
I am different, I don't fit into society, working out there and getting a job is "normal", I am not normal.
If I got a job I would have to pretend to be someone else. Someone that gives a fuk about things I don't give a fuk about.
I just don't give a fuk, why would someone want to hire someone who don't give a fuk.
I have a history of quiting most jobs I have had, so I can't use any for a reference.
I am worried about getting a job and feeling negative emotions, trapped, slaving my life away....which will make me contemplate the pointless existence of human life to just come here and work, doing things we don't want to do.
I don't like doing what other people want me to do
I like being honest and even to a authority figure, my honesty could easily lose my job
I am my own boss, even if I am not! People won't like that, so I would have to be different. I would have to change to please other people...
So how am I meant to get through this stuff? If it feels like this is who I am?
Just so I can get myself to get a part-time job?
