So I was bored and actually started looking for part time jobs online, I can see why I have put this off, as they all suck and confirms why I have not had a job for a long time because I have had a thing about doing things I don't like or want to do.
I am doing my best to come at it as just something to fill my time up doing something productive and earning my own money, so I can continue some hobbies and eat etc.
I gotta do an evening class in English, for 10 months, so I can get onto this other course which I will have to do for another year, so I can then meet the requirements to do a degree.
I have ideas what I would like to do degree wise but they shift sometimes. So I won't plan too far ahead as I never know what change by then.
It's challenging sometimes because I am 30 years old and I have lots of things I dislike that is normal for society, so when it comes to average jobs I will have to put up with things I don't like, like pretending to want to be of service to customers, or actually caring about people lol.
I don't know I will see what unfolds, I enjoy Krav Maga, Strength Training but I enjoy them only as hobbies me thinks. I did enjoy my experiences with the plant medicine Aya back in 2014, that was the last time I actually felt I met people on similar wave length, I have changed alot since then though. I live in England, so I had to go all the way to Peru and live pretty much in the jungle for two months, it was pretty awesome but it will cost thousands to go back there. I was contemplating it 5 months ago but was in a relationship so there was friction about going.
Anyway, I went to Miami to do a cocktail bartending course recently, It was meant to be for 4 weeks I came back home after two weeks, I felt it was not for me.
When I was 17 years old I wanted to go into the parachute regiment but failed because of medical history for something around age 6. I then applied for Royal Marines but failed the psychometric test, around maths....I would not of gotten in because of my medical history anyway, Army/Royal Navy had pretty much same medical requirements.
I am glad I did not get in now anyway, as I see things, life, reality very different now for quite a few years. So it was a blessing in disguise. I actually feel certain paths are blocked of in life so you do not go down that path, as it is not your theme in this life.
Anyway I did try the police a few years later but it was for volunteer but it did not get in for some strange reason to do with a tattoo, which looking back now was just a glitch in reality as it makes no sense but oh well.
Then when age 21 I applied for Prison Officer but did not get the grade for roles plays and maths.pretty glad I did not.
I have worked in a few supermarkets, but most of my jobs have been for my father's business within construction. I have ended up quitting all jobs as I ended up disliking it and feeling depressed.
I have dropped out of college 4 times previously, not university, I have never done a degree, but I do want to now.
I did amateur boxing from age 14 to age 19, had to stop because my shoulder kept dislocating. I only a few months ago had the surgery I should of had all them years ago, glad I finally got it done and now it has pretty much healed up from the surgery, at least I can fulfill my potential in Krav now.
So yeah I know the time stamps are all over the place, just want to put some of it out there. You can kinda see where I am coming from, I haven't had a job for 2 years, my father has been giving me money to get by, I live at home with my parents, I had to wait a year for my surgery date, I thought it was going to happen at any moment.
I just want to be able to stand on my own two feet. My dream is to own my own house and have a career or business that I enjoy and/or makes me feel alive!
I appreciate my parents and where I live as it is very nice and I am fortunate to have the parents I have and the up bringing I have had and grow up in the house I have, I am really thankful.
I just want to create my own unique Fluffy life, as I feel that I owe that to myself as a now 30 year old man.
I am doing my best to come at it as just something to fill my time up doing something productive and earning my own money, so I can continue some hobbies and eat etc.
I gotta do an evening class in English, for 10 months, so I can get onto this other course which I will have to do for another year, so I can then meet the requirements to do a degree.
I have ideas what I would like to do degree wise but they shift sometimes. So I won't plan too far ahead as I never know what change by then.
It's challenging sometimes because I am 30 years old and I have lots of things I dislike that is normal for society, so when it comes to average jobs I will have to put up with things I don't like, like pretending to want to be of service to customers, or actually caring about people lol.
I don't know I will see what unfolds, I enjoy Krav Maga, Strength Training but I enjoy them only as hobbies me thinks. I did enjoy my experiences with the plant medicine Aya back in 2014, that was the last time I actually felt I met people on similar wave length, I have changed alot since then though. I live in England, so I had to go all the way to Peru and live pretty much in the jungle for two months, it was pretty awesome but it will cost thousands to go back there. I was contemplating it 5 months ago but was in a relationship so there was friction about going.
Anyway, I went to Miami to do a cocktail bartending course recently, It was meant to be for 4 weeks I came back home after two weeks, I felt it was not for me.
When I was 17 years old I wanted to go into the parachute regiment but failed because of medical history for something around age 6. I then applied for Royal Marines but failed the psychometric test, around maths....I would not of gotten in because of my medical history anyway, Army/Royal Navy had pretty much same medical requirements.
I am glad I did not get in now anyway, as I see things, life, reality very different now for quite a few years. So it was a blessing in disguise. I actually feel certain paths are blocked of in life so you do not go down that path, as it is not your theme in this life.
Anyway I did try the police a few years later but it was for volunteer but it did not get in for some strange reason to do with a tattoo, which looking back now was just a glitch in reality as it makes no sense but oh well.
Then when age 21 I applied for Prison Officer but did not get the grade for roles plays and maths.pretty glad I did not.
I have worked in a few supermarkets, but most of my jobs have been for my father's business within construction. I have ended up quitting all jobs as I ended up disliking it and feeling depressed.
I have dropped out of college 4 times previously, not university, I have never done a degree, but I do want to now.
I did amateur boxing from age 14 to age 19, had to stop because my shoulder kept dislocating. I only a few months ago had the surgery I should of had all them years ago, glad I finally got it done and now it has pretty much healed up from the surgery, at least I can fulfill my potential in Krav now.
So yeah I know the time stamps are all over the place, just want to put some of it out there. You can kinda see where I am coming from, I haven't had a job for 2 years, my father has been giving me money to get by, I live at home with my parents, I had to wait a year for my surgery date, I thought it was going to happen at any moment.
I just want to be able to stand on my own two feet. My dream is to own my own house and have a career or business that I enjoy and/or makes me feel alive!
I appreciate my parents and where I live as it is very nice and I am fortunate to have the parents I have and the up bringing I have had and grow up in the house I have, I am really thankful.
I just want to create my own unique Fluffy life, as I feel that I owe that to myself as a now 30 year old man.
