03-24-2011, 03:19 PM
Today is day 11 of the program, and I had an off day. I felt some what needy and clingy, desperate wanting something to happen with this girl at work. Every time I saw her. I just wanted to do something but couldn't do it. I found myself wanting to look at her every moment that I got a chance to, knowing that I shouldn't do it. I really don't like feeling like this because it just makes me feel like I am being a wuss in some way. However, I know that it is the program which is removing the old programing and adding the new an improved stuff to make me the man whom I want to become.
