Soaring Higher Journal

[ArcticFox]

"I have been feeling really alone, I wish I had some real friends and even a girlfriend. I feel I am not getting any real intimate connection with anyone and I feel like I need it to feel sane. I have my parents and brother and few guys at work that I see couple times a week and on Saturday I see some new people on a course I am doing. But I can't connect with none of them and it makes me feel alone even if I am interacting and talking with them. It sucks bad. I want someone to be close to and be really open and feel ''connection'' what ever that means."

I feel very very similar to this. I have no real close friends, my family although love me are very distant and don't really know me. To be fair I've always been alone, and I don't know how to fix this - what's inside me that's is preventing me from what I think I want.

Sorry to hijack. Just know you're not alone and I share some of your problems.