Soaring Higher Journal

[Soaring]

It's ether stop this sub (which I dont really want to do) Or I am gonna have to add another 4G sub like overcome Procrastination.

I want to use just AYPPFRL but I am procrastinating the shit out of my life. Why can't these subs just be simple as set it and forget it.

The thing that is eating at me is that I know if I did everything I needed to do, I would be a very successful person. But I have this sense of no worries, not caring, can't bothered, whatever thing going on.

I feel myself like that towards females too, which is great in that regard. I have a radar like bib bib bib bib ...not perfect for me, dismissed....bib bib bib bib, not perfect for me, dismissed. Which I love!

[Soaring]

Every sub could improve my life if used for 8 months. I am just so confused, I wish I could use both, I don't want to quit AYP, but my college and other goals are suffering because of it.

if I used both I could only do 4-5 hours each.

[Soaring]

Yes this is very appealing indeed. I think I will actually do both, even though in theory it might take longer to manifest her (Not as long as if I stopped using it) but at least I can be productive and getting on with my personal goals at the same time. I am ok with allowing up to 12 months, at least I can set it and forget it now.

No worries 4KINGDOMS, you will manifest your perfect lover way way waaaaaaaay before me!


Thanks a lot guys!

[Soaring]

Feeling a bit down lately, I am thinking it's OP. I am not complaining... it makes sense as the OP script is like the complete opposite of me. In Myers Briggs I am an INTP type. I go with the flow, keep my options open, spontaneous, decide in the moment, never really like committing to one particular idea, thought or action etc.

It's good to remind myself ''it's the subs'' doing their thang.

[Soaring]

No, as of yet I am procrastinating more lol. It's early days yet though mate.

[Soaring]

I just went to the super market to get some food and I got approached by this girl with her friend. Her friend made her come talk to me because she liked me, she was really embarrassed and introduced her self to me, I got her number and called her phone so she had my number. We spoke for a bit longer and I gave her and her friend a cuddle and said my byes.

she has already text me, pretty much straight a way.

Shes very nice! ....shes not petite though, probably 5''7.

[Soaring]

I am 6ft. Yeah a 5'ft girl with hour class body shape would be nice, thank you universe lol. Yeah its cool, i'll see what happens.

[Soaring]

I keep myself to myself at college don't really go out my way to interact with people, I really cant be bothered. The class are arranging a Xmas meal and drink for Dec. I know for a fact no girl in my class are my perfect romantic lover, but it will be interesting to see where I am at in 3 months time! ...a lot can happen especially running APPRL and OP subs. I Wish I had the remote control out of the movie Click sometimes.

[Soaring]

Yeah weird things have been happening like I have not done my strength training for about 5 weeks and it has really been getting to me these last few days, I am feeling frustrated and down because I am not achieving anything.

Even at college I have not started my assignments that need to be finished with the next few weeks. I feel ok about that as I will do them at the last minute. But it don't help thinking everyday I should not have chose sciences, just going to college these last few days was an achievement.

Fortunately if I do decide to go uni, It looks like I am not stuck in only being able to do a science related degree, which I personally feel I do not want to do. I am keeping my options open as I got untill December to decide Start applying for degrees.

There are a few peeps in my class that are into there gym and it never really bothered me that I have not been training, I was like 'I don't care'. But it is really bothering me now as I know I could achieve great things and actually surpass them all.

I feel that I have let myself go in all aspects in life and when I see people that are younger then me in my class doing things I used to do and are being at bit cocky (not to me but I sense it), it starts to bug me now.

I think it's Overcome Procrastination, because I feel a frustration, impatience. A monkey on my back nagging at me saying you have not achieved nothing for years! ... Do something about it!!!! You can wipe the floor with these people!

[Soaring]

So today I did my strength training and today I have been eating properly. I got in contact with an old friend that is a female model photographer, asked him if he can do me some photos in December time. That will give me a training goal to work towards.

All I gotta do is eat properly and consistency strength train and this weekend actually study and do much of my assignments for college as I possibly can....then I will be onto something.

I will buy some new clothes for my shoot nearer the time, in the mean time I got to find a haircut and beard style that most compliments me!

[Soaring]

I feel confident in myself sticking to these subs for 8 months, as they both are exactly what I want at this time. I have never been more sure to be honest.

I have been having epic dreams, between being a hero and having intimate romantic one on one encounters with a girl.

I feel more ''on the ball".

Everyday my mind changes it's opinion on college, I some days think I should quit and others days I think I should stay and just do what I can do.

I feel good about going college as it feel like I am achomplishing something and have a sense of direction, even if I have not started my assignments lol.

At the same time I don't really like science as much as I thought, I find it kind of tedious. If I do stay I won't be doing a degree related to science after.

[Soaring]

I feel that it's not that I don't want to be at college but that I have chosen the wrong course for myself.

I have a 75% attendance, probley less because I missed last two classes today. I have been feeling down with all these thoughts of if I am doing the right thing or not etc.

I am going to speak to my teacher tomorrow and tell him I feel that I chosen the wrong course etc. And to see what my options are....

[ArcticFox]

I am going to speak to my teacher tomorrow and tell him I feel that I chosen the wrong course etc. And to see what my options are....

Good move, always best to talk these things over. Nothing wrong with changing course. I wish I had changed course at Uni, but didn't. I forced it and it cost me 2 failed years.

[Soaring]

Last week on the Tuesday I spoke to my teacher and he said he will check with the other courses and see if he can get me moved to a sosocialogy studies and in the mean time not worth continuing with the science course.

He was meant to get in contact with me but, he has not yet. Makes me wonder what the f/ck his doing.

So I still don't know what's happening, maybe I will find out tomorrow or Tuesday, hopefully.

It would be ideal for me to switch to something else and continue on because I would rather not got back to no sense of direction again and have to wait untill next September. Feel like I would be back to square one again.

I ended up the other day joining eharmony, not sure how it happened really I just woke up one day and decided to. If anything it's interesting and another door that my perfect romantic lover could come through.

I have just been honest and told it how it is on my profile, to weed out all the air heads and women that are not compatible with me. I am not playing mind games like the rest of society.

I feel that if I manifest my romantic lover I then have more belief and trust in subliminals, especially in relations to the law of attraction and subliminals and I would have more patience and trust in my future subliminal endevers.

As I know visualisation and law of attraction work as I have multiple successes with that, but I really dislike visualising with emotions for some reason, it gives me anxiety just thinking about it, very weird.

I am looking forward to moving onto AM or BASE in future, when I know I have the persistence and patience to use a sub for the long whole and trust and belief that they actually work in getting actual tangible results, not just emotional symptoms and vivid dreams only.

I have kind of turned into a hippy from the 70's and I just don't care no more.