(10-22-2018, 09:42 AM)Shannon Wrote: I am a little late to the game because of a serious infection that required MIR for my GF, which then spread to me. It is gone now, and was bested using only MIR, vitamins and colloidal silver (although I am currently unsure the "colloidal silver" I used had any effect, since it turned out to be a silver protein, which is worthless, even though the packaging specifies that it is only silver colloids and pure water; I will avoid Silver Wings brand in the future).@Shannon
Anyway, last night was my second day (night) of using it.
There were several days of what I suspected were TID before hand, including emotional upheavals, and the day after my first 6 loops I was sure that those were indeed TID. I found my inner child crying and terrified when I awoke, and this wasn't the usual 4 year old part of me, this was my 2 year old self, who I haven't dealt with before. Apparently, FRM v2 went straight to the source and stirred some shit up.
It took me hours to calm down, and I used the method of talking to him, comforting him, imagining me holding him on my lap and explaining things to him, but at that age the comprehension is limited. Eventually I got him to calm down, but it wasn't fun. Was still not feeling great an hour later, when I went to a rock and gem show. That was so mind blowing that it distracted me sufficiently to calm me down.
At the rock and gem show, I saw many things I wanted to buy, but I would not allow myself to, being responsible with my money. There was one piece, however, a massive (in the sense of shape and size) piece of high grade larimar that is very beautiful. If you have never heard of larimar, that's because it's relatively rare, and good quality pieces are very rare indeed. A good quality piece, not top quality but good wuality piece an inch by half an inch by a few milimeters thck can go for hundreds of dollars. This piece weighs over a pound, but I haven't weighed it yet. It had one side sliced off and polished just below the crust to reveal the beautiful blue and white pattern underneath. I asked how much they wanted for it, and they said $125. I passed.
The rest of the gem show, I was repeatedly blown away. Fossilized coral, palm tree, sequoia; opalized wood; new types of gem that have only been discovered recently; uncut ruby crystals a pound in weight; and on and on and on. I only purchased a membership to the rock and gem club.
When I left, I could not stop thinking about that piece of larimar. It would not leave my mind. I couldn't figure out why. But over time, I realized that this response meant that some part of me was trying to communicate that I should buy it. I knew next to nothing about larimar, so it was a gamble, but the next day (last day of the show) I went back, and there it was, still waiting for me. I bought it immediately, and the woman who sold it to me started talking like it was a baby. "I's a type of volcanic glass," she told me. "Very delicate. I always take extra care when I handle it to make sure I don't drop it. Be very careful with it. And if you cut it, cut it sloooowly, because it's very delicate." and on and on.
I have been mesmerized by it ever since. It is sitting on my desk and I look at it frequently.
This morning I went on ebay to see what comparable pieces are worth. There were none. There were only slabs of rough, and all of them were low grade. My piece is probably AAB grade, which is mid grade. 2x3 inch slices of low grade are going for ~$20, unworked. I looked for pieces in the same grade I have and found only two pieces of jewelry that contained them. Both from the same seller, and both between $100 and $200+ for a polished 1" x 1/2" pendant that was wrapped in gold filled wire.
I'm estimating that my piece is worth, at present, if I were to cut it and polish it the same way, at least 10x what I paid for it, and since there is only one source of larimar in the world and it is almost mined out, waiting to cut and/or sell it will surely net me a lot more than that. I'd say that's a pretty good ROI, and it has to be USLM2. So is having found and joined the rock and gem club, since they have a lot of classes I am dying to take: wire wrapping, chainmaille, silversmithing, lost wax casting, vacuum casting, lampwork, making cabachons, faceting, and others.
Last night I stayed up a long time taking care of my GF, who is also dealing with emotional turmoil from FRM2, apparently. It prevents her from sleeping for the last few days, and I woke up last night shortly after I fell asleep to her softly crying, trying not to awaken me. But I can always feel when she needs me, and I spent some time comforting her. She has had a really damaging past Neither she nor I believes that she would still be alive if I hadn't entered her life, but together we seem to be helping one another heal and make great progress.
None of this would have been an issue if I could have slept as long as I liked this morning, but this morning was an important test of B17 which was scheduled last week. I couldn't back out. Unfortunately, because we were so tired it took me longer than usual to calculate the settings and we got to the test after it should have been over. It was a complete bust. It has to be done again.
So now we are exhausted, the test was a waste of time, and I have to do it again. Worse, I can't work today because of my exhaustion. I'm forcing us to stay awake with caffeine and the awakener to force myself back onto a good sleep schedule ASAP, but today is a bust. I feel, in spite of everything, like my eyes are going to melt out of my head. That usually only happens when I am seriously sleep deprived.
The good news is, today I do not feel bad emotionally as a result of FRMv2. Whatever it was doing that upset my 2 year old self, it is done doing it. That it hit my 2 year old self that hard that fast, and was done that fast, absolutely amazes me.
USLM2 was NOT pleasant that first day, and I'm not sure how long it will take to get to where it is pleasant, but GF says that she's sold over $125 worth of stuff on eBay since we started using it, which is in stark contrast to the $13 worth of stuff she sold during the previous month. She's convinced that's USLM2, and insists that we keep going.
So here we are on Day 2.
I have tried to make v3 of FRM many times faster acting, more powerful and more comfortable to use than v2. Let's hope.
This program is definitely very heavy hitting early on than USLM1. I think you are onto something with regards to FRM. I am eagerly anticipating to see how FRM develops over the next few programs.
it sounds like your GF is having a hard time with FRM. Does she have severe issues with fear and other emotional issues?
