Shannon's LTU5 Thread

[Zane]

Any Updates on your LTU journey? Buddy

[Shannon]

Any Updates on your LTU journey? Buddy

Well there are definitely things being worked on.  I can feel my fears ebbing and flowing as they are worked on.  The other day I went to a lighthouse and I was on the outer ring at the top, 150 feet up.  Nothing but an inch of metal holding me up, and what was holding that up?  The guy at the top, tour guide, told me it was designed to hold 10 tons, which made me feel better, but still... I was a little nervous.  I didn't feel that fear of heights this much when I went ziplining.

I also notice that my house is becoming more cluttered, which is of course reverse resistance to the de-clutter module.  I have determined that the clutter is my subconscious/inner child holding onto an association to my mother, which it connects with clutter because my mother always required me to clean as "my job" when I was growing up, but then she wanted me to clean her way.  She was a packrat, and clutter drove (and still drives) me nuts.  She would read novel after noven and then stack them on the end tables, and fill bookcases and everything with these books and clutter, and when I would actually clean (get rid of this clutter), she would literally flip out.  So the end result was, I refused to clean (because when I actually did, she got mad) and so did she ("because that's your job, Shannon").  But she would continue to create clutter.

A while ago I tried to create a de-clutter sub and run it and it made me very depressed for three days before I finally had a dream that explained this association to me.  That part of me was thinking I wanted to "get rid of my mother" by de-cluttering.  So I am guessing that the FRM etc. is working on making the de-clutter happen, but that part of me isn't ready to let go of this association yet.

More and more I am getting frustrated at the conscious level with this clutter, though, and at the same time I feel lethargic about it.  Definitely a conflict going on.

I find in general that I feel slightly tired all the time while I am on, and on the 2nd day of rest I feel back to normal.  The timing of the on to off must be right, because it's just enough rest to keep going.

In general, I find that this program is working well to push gf past her desires to give up in the face of challenge.  I can't tell if it's resistance or what, but USLM4 in the script doesn't seem to be working for her as well as it is for me.  This makes me think it is resistance, and probably a fear of success.  Whatever the case is, I see her going through ever shortening cycles of resistance, frustration, complaining, depression, and the resolving to keep going anyway.  I think soon enough we will just get to the point where it's only a dogged determination to keep going left.  Her depressive episodes in general are much less frequent, much less bad and much shorter. 

Overall, LTU5 is definitely working on us, but some parts of its job are not easy to accomplish.  I think it's just a matter of time and working through these things.  This part isn't the most easy or fun part, but I do see progress being made regardless.  I do wish I could run USLM4, though.

[Shannon]

I am also noticing that something interesting seems to be happening. I am at the same time seeing one part of me trying to distract me from achieving my goals, while another part executes the script and does them anyway. The side trying to distract me is using various things as excuses not to move forward, and every time I realize that is what's happening, I just naturally do whatever was being resisted.

Taxes, house repairs, cleaning up the yard, working on subs, doesn't seem to matter. I get the feeling that regardless of resistance and evasion tactics, the program's instruction set will win out in the end.

[Shannon]

LTU5 is definitely making progress with gf and me both.  We have come to the point in the process where it's not fast progress anymore because what needs to be done is stuff that my inner child and her inner child apparently do not want to deal with.  But it's being dealt with regardless, slowly and surely.  I am seeing her make progress and I am making progress too.

Interestingly, she has developed a distinct pattern of behavior that changes from day to day in each cycle.  It is clear that the part of her resisting always comes out on her second day of break, and it is not happy.  She has such a contrast between Day 1 and Day 6 of the cycle that it's incredible.  Day 1 she's always happy, productive, glad to be productive, playful, positive, silly, laughing.  Day 6, she is moody, negative, depressive, irritable, irrational, doom and gloom, unproductive, argumentative and frustrated.  The part of her resisting can't resist during the other days of the cycle.  It only comes out dominant on that 6th day.  By the middle of that 6th day, both she and I are looking forward to playing LTU5 again to correct that.  And then on that 1st day of the next cycle... peaches and cream again.

I think that part of her trying to resist is unable to overpower the program while it's playing, and she is making progress.  That's really good news.  It means that these programs are at least starting to work even for resistant personalities.  She has been a pain in my ass with subliminal resistance ever since I met her.  Doubled over in pain from a gastrointestinal issue, but she will fight GPR to the death.  Exhausted, but she will stay awake all night if I play any version of SIA.  

I am definitely looking forward to seeing how this cycle changes over time for her.

For me, there seem to be some areas I am making progress in and some areas that I am struggling with.  Right now I am trying to understand what my "inner child" is doing, and why.

Either way, this program so far has been golden.  Seeing as what it's done for us, I would gladly pay what I am charging for it.

[Greenduck]

I have read something about inner-child-work and heard about it. Could you say it being a part of your subconscious that is "stuck" at a child-level?

I somewhat recognize the patterns of your GF. But mine is more unpredictable (or I just can't spot the patterns), I have some really tough days, some normal days and some good days. But it seems to go in waves, going deeper and deeper and clearing things at levels.

[Shannon]

When I say inner child it's because I am aware of two vert traumatic points in my life when I was 2 and 4 which seem to have crystallized as identifiable parts of my awareness as a result. It is also a generalization for my subconscious.

I would not say they are stuck, because the subconscious includes a record of all of your selves at every possible age as a normal part of its function and existence. What happens is that very traumatic experiences can crystallize as identifiable awareness within the flow of the record of all possible "you"s. They fixate on the fear generated by the experience and stand out as a result. They also influence you in situations where their level of fear and understanding gets triggered by something you are experiencing which they perceive as a threat that could lead to more of what they fear.

LTU5 has largely dealt with the situation that bothered my 2 year old self. It is also working on the 4 year old, but he is very stubborn at an instinctual level and it is taking time. I strongly suspect gf has the same thing going on.

[Have at ye]

When I say inner child it's because I am aware of two vert traumatic points in my life when I was 2 and 4 which seem to have crystallized as identifiable parts of my awareness as a result. It is also a generalization for my subconscious.

I would not say they are stuck, because the subconscious includes a record of all of your selves at every possible age as a normal part of its function and existence. What happens is that very traumatic experiences can crystallize as identifiable awareness within the flow of the record of all possible "you"s.  They fixate on the fear generated by the experience and stand out as a result.  They also influence you in situations where their level of fear and understanding gets triggered by something you are experiencing which they perceive as a threat that could lead to more of what they fear.

LTU5 has largely dealt with the situation that bothered my 2 year old self. It is also working on the 4 year old, but he is very stubborn at an instinctual level and it is taking time. I strongly suspect gf has the same thing going on.

Same here, even though I'm still running DMSI. It's digging. I am noticing that gradually the issues caused by early experiences are becoming more and more clear to me consciously as well as subconsciously (because the dreams related to these are becoming more and more lucid and understandable to me; they used to be totes bonkers).

Incidentally, I believe that when these deep child-consciousness fears become triggered to a serious extent, one usually starts acting in a regressive manner (as per daddy Freud; becoming more "childlike" in actions and emotions); so that also could be a clue for people as to what the particulars may be.

[X88B88]

Is USLM V4 in LTU 5?

It says on the sales page that it has the optimised version of USLM 3.

You might have already addressed this somewhere, does this program run the affects of the 12 programs contained in parallel or sequentially as needed? Would this not cause a type of overload ( for example the equivalent of exercising all your muscles all the time at the gym)?

[Benjamin]

Yes it's V4.

[Shannon]

Slowly but surely, progress is being made for both me and gf. She has decided to shut down one of her money making ventures to focus on the other, and I think that will result in a better relationship and more happiness for both of us. I can feel the effects of LTU5 slowly molding me, regardless of subconscious resistance, into something better. It's not going as quickly as I would like, but it is happening regardless, which impresses and pleases me.

Today is day 2 of the days off for this cycle. So far no sign of negativity from gf. I think that's because she has decied to shut down the one money making venture. It causes her a lot of stress because for it to work, she would have to face certain fears and make certain changes I don't think she's ready to face or make yet. But this is still progress, because last time she landed herself in this position, she was too scared to even quit the job. Now at least she is recognizing when something makes her unhappy and making steps to correct that, even if they are not necessarily the steps I'd like to see her making to achieve that correction.

So progress. Pleased with that. In general, people seem to be doing well with LTU5. I'm only going to build this program once more, and that will be in 6G.

[Superman]

Can you provide some guidance on how we should be focusing our thoughts to our goals in order to make the most of LTU?

[Shannon]

Can you provide some guidance on how we should be focusing our thoughts to our goals in order to make the most of LTU?

I have been doing that in a number of threads lately.  

What I do is pick a major goal and then, if I pick one or two other goals, I make sure they tie into and support the major goal, and I focus myself on all of my goals, but most heavily on the one that is the next logical step.  For example, my major goal right now is to become wealthy enough to accomplish my primary goals.  To accomplish that, I am focused on developing new technologies and creating new programs.  I trade off with those two sub-goals as to which one I am focusing on, because I judge them to be equally important, and they suffer if I do not pick one to focus on at a time.

Then I put myself into that goal and make it my life's focus.  I just finished a cycle of focusing on developing new tech by working with Beast, which was what I was eating, sleeping and drinking during the time I was focused on it.

Today I finished building Beast 18, and took the rest of the day off to rest.  Tomorrow I begin working on UMS, and during that time I will be focusing all of myself on designing, creating and building UMS and making it the best I can make it.

[Have at ye]

Can you provide some guidance on how we should be focusing our thoughts to our goals in order to make the most of LTU?

I have been doing that in a number of threads lately.  

What I do is pick a major goal and then, if I pick one or two other goals, I make sure they tie into and support the major goal, and I focus myself on all of my goals, but most heavily on the one that is the next logical step.  For example, my major goal right now is to become wealthy enough to accomplish my primary goals.  To accomplish that, I am focused on developing new technologies and creating new programs.  I trade off with those two sub-goals as to which one I am focusing on, because I judge them to be equally important, and they suffer if I do not pick one to focus on at a time.

Then I put myself into that goal and make it my life's focus.  I just finished a cycle of focusing on developing new tech by working with Beast, which was what I was eating, sleeping and drinking during the time I was focused on it.

Today I finished building Beast 18, and took the rest of the day off to rest.  Tomorrow I begin working on UMS, and during that time I will be focusing all of myself on designing, creating and building UMS and making it the best I can make it.

Well, you HAVE been churning out one great program after another lately in a consistent manner.

[Shannon]

I have been noticing some things that are very consistent with LTU5.

First, it is so natural that a lot of how it affects me is hard to see. It is more easily noted with my GF because she is more overt in her emotional reactions. When we are on target for the ASRB2, her overall is much more positive. If we miss a day she isn't as steady. If she's significantly upset, the program can be used to bring her back to a calm state.

She's going through some serious challenges lately, and the program has not only got her doing things I am astonished to see her doing (which she could never have done before because of fear) but it also has been very useful for bringing her back to a state of calm and even happiness from serious emotional pain and anguish in a few cases. She is facing fears that have held her back and the process of facing them is very difficult, but she's doing it. I cannot say how impressed I am with that.

But the way it is affecting me through this whole cancer ordeal with my uncle is also very much impressing me. Instead of responding with fear and pain, I immediately took charge and when the doctors had written him of as "terminal" I started rallying the family and working on doing what was possible to do to make things better: multi-vitamins, helping him improve his sleep, and looking for ways to help.

Him seeing my response has significantly improved his spirits and he does seem to be slowly improving his state of health.

It has been significantly exhausting taking care of all this, but I definitely feel like I can handle it. This would not have been the case before LTU5.

And what my gf is doing to deal with her challenges instead of hide from them, simply amazing!