02-07-2019, 04:40 PM
This journal was actually started a while ago, but never got published. It's been hectic since releasing LTU4.
TID was noted in the form of some very suddenly out of character negativity for my GF, which is what she was originally coming from, and what I made LTU4 to help her overcome. USLM3 had her pretty positive for the most part, but that day of negativity passed. Another TID happened after dinner shortly after I released it, with GF suddenly much more interested in talking to me and holding hands and being appreciative of "us", and with me feeling so grateful for the good stuff in my life that I almost started to tear up.
Day 1 I woke up feeling like I was just finished receiving a full body massage, and was exhausted all day. After a while, had a tension backache from whatever was being processed subconsciously while I slept. But I felt good emotionally.
Day 2 I had the backache still, and still felt good. Started noticing that I was happier in general, and my relationship started improving. First half of day I was dragging and then something cleared and my exhaustion was cut in half. Still drained, but not nearly as bad.
Day 3 and backache was gone about half way through the day. Exhaustion was less than before, but I was shot by 5 or 6 PM.
I don't remember what day it is, but yesterday we had a great day, and the day before that was even better. Relationship definitely improving. We have been happier in general, more appreciative of each other. More loving.
Today she woke up and she was not in a good mood. I had apparently been so tired last night that I played the sleep induction aid on loop all night instead of playing through the playlist, and her response was definitely not a good one. Misunderstandings led us from discussing whether or not to have breakfast to almost getting in a fight to me having to listen to her vent about how frustrated and upset she is, and shooting down all my ideas because she was in that failure based mindset that she used to be in all the time earlier in our relationship. It stems from one particular part of her personality, and I can always tell when it is dominating her thinking processes. She becomes extremely negative.
We listened to our loops during the day, but failing to do them last night was definitely a bad thing. Most of the day she's been moody and negative and snappish, and dealing with her is stressful. But I do notice that it's easier than it normally would be. I also notice that her mood improved while she was being continuously exposed to LTU, but before that and after that she was being negative. I expect she will be back to normal tomorrow, since we will be listening to our loops overnight tonight.
Yesterday, maybe day before I also noted that one of my deepest most stubborn fear-source memories was changing; or rather, I in this memory changed from fearful and insecure to self supplying of security and simply observing the memory that before caused me insecurity. Nothing has ever helped me overcome that before.
Overall I'm happier, more appreciative, less stressed, more positive, my sense of humor is more spontaneous and better, I feel free-er, I notice my fears are fading and my relationship has improved. I'm pleased and impressed how much improvement there has been so far.
TID was noted in the form of some very suddenly out of character negativity for my GF, which is what she was originally coming from, and what I made LTU4 to help her overcome. USLM3 had her pretty positive for the most part, but that day of negativity passed. Another TID happened after dinner shortly after I released it, with GF suddenly much more interested in talking to me and holding hands and being appreciative of "us", and with me feeling so grateful for the good stuff in my life that I almost started to tear up.
Day 1 I woke up feeling like I was just finished receiving a full body massage, and was exhausted all day. After a while, had a tension backache from whatever was being processed subconsciously while I slept. But I felt good emotionally.
Day 2 I had the backache still, and still felt good. Started noticing that I was happier in general, and my relationship started improving. First half of day I was dragging and then something cleared and my exhaustion was cut in half. Still drained, but not nearly as bad.
Day 3 and backache was gone about half way through the day. Exhaustion was less than before, but I was shot by 5 or 6 PM.
I don't remember what day it is, but yesterday we had a great day, and the day before that was even better. Relationship definitely improving. We have been happier in general, more appreciative of each other. More loving.
Today she woke up and she was not in a good mood. I had apparently been so tired last night that I played the sleep induction aid on loop all night instead of playing through the playlist, and her response was definitely not a good one. Misunderstandings led us from discussing whether or not to have breakfast to almost getting in a fight to me having to listen to her vent about how frustrated and upset she is, and shooting down all my ideas because she was in that failure based mindset that she used to be in all the time earlier in our relationship. It stems from one particular part of her personality, and I can always tell when it is dominating her thinking processes. She becomes extremely negative.
We listened to our loops during the day, but failing to do them last night was definitely a bad thing. Most of the day she's been moody and negative and snappish, and dealing with her is stressful. But I do notice that it's easier than it normally would be. I also notice that her mood improved while she was being continuously exposed to LTU, but before that and after that she was being negative. I expect she will be back to normal tomorrow, since we will be listening to our loops overnight tonight.
Yesterday, maybe day before I also noted that one of my deepest most stubborn fear-source memories was changing; or rather, I in this memory changed from fearful and insecure to self supplying of security and simply observing the memory that before caused me insecurity. Nothing has ever helped me overcome that before.
Overall I'm happier, more appreciative, less stressed, more positive, my sense of humor is more spontaneous and better, I feel free-er, I notice my fears are fading and my relationship has improved. I'm pleased and impressed how much improvement there has been so far.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!