08-29-2020, 12:27 PM
Day 1 of Cycle 2.
Last couple of days have been hard for me. Yesterday I was overcome with nausea and a headache most of the day. I'm not sure if I'm coming down with something, or it's the barometric pressure swings, or I'm resisting LTUv6 but I haven't had headaches like these in a LONG time. These feel like clods of achey goodness in my head. Not super painful, maybe a 3-4 out of 10, but enough to make me have a hard time focusing. And nausea all the time is not my usual. Yesterday I took an ibuprofen because I didn't want GPR to have any chance to interfere with LTU6 and potentially make me even MORE tired. It never completely removed the headache, but made it bearable. Last night, GF noticed I was radiating a lot of heat. That could be me coming down with something, or me projecting the DRS, since last night was night 1 back on for cycle 2.
So yesterday was basically a wash and today hasn't been much better, because of that and because I have to drive all over the place all day to take care of day to day stuff.
Not having fun, but I can tell you, if this is resistance, we gonna double down. Because if this is resistance, it means that this program is so powerful that it's breached my subconscious ability to resist as it has in the past, and we are basically facing fears that are root/core level fears. And the last time I did that was in 2006 when I went in for chemo and they came at me with needles all day every day for months on end. I had a deathly fear of hypodermic needles penetrating my flesh, and it was so bad that I would feel nauseous and eventually pass out if I was sitting or standing when I had the needle inserted. I had to lay down to have a shot or have a needle inserted to prevent me from passing out.
But that nausea felt similar. Hmmm.
I don't know what's going on, but I do know that based on my dreams lately, this program is definitely pushing me into "unknown territory". It is powerful enough to overcome my resistance to fear of the unknown, and for the first time in I don't know how long, the "I feel lost, I don't know how to handle this" is coming up. It's not always fun to go through, but it's very impressive and it means that finally, FINALLY, I have a way to make subs that will make progress that I couldn't make before. I'm sure this will be the case for a lot of people who were stuck previously as well.
The headache and nausea is a lot less today than yesterday. And given how smooth this program feels otherwise, if this is resistance I have to say it's pretty amazing how powerful the program is to make it this bearable.
Last couple of days have been hard for me. Yesterday I was overcome with nausea and a headache most of the day. I'm not sure if I'm coming down with something, or it's the barometric pressure swings, or I'm resisting LTUv6 but I haven't had headaches like these in a LONG time. These feel like clods of achey goodness in my head. Not super painful, maybe a 3-4 out of 10, but enough to make me have a hard time focusing. And nausea all the time is not my usual. Yesterday I took an ibuprofen because I didn't want GPR to have any chance to interfere with LTU6 and potentially make me even MORE tired. It never completely removed the headache, but made it bearable. Last night, GF noticed I was radiating a lot of heat. That could be me coming down with something, or me projecting the DRS, since last night was night 1 back on for cycle 2.
So yesterday was basically a wash and today hasn't been much better, because of that and because I have to drive all over the place all day to take care of day to day stuff.
Not having fun, but I can tell you, if this is resistance, we gonna double down. Because if this is resistance, it means that this program is so powerful that it's breached my subconscious ability to resist as it has in the past, and we are basically facing fears that are root/core level fears. And the last time I did that was in 2006 when I went in for chemo and they came at me with needles all day every day for months on end. I had a deathly fear of hypodermic needles penetrating my flesh, and it was so bad that I would feel nauseous and eventually pass out if I was sitting or standing when I had the needle inserted. I had to lay down to have a shot or have a needle inserted to prevent me from passing out.
But that nausea felt similar. Hmmm.
I don't know what's going on, but I do know that based on my dreams lately, this program is definitely pushing me into "unknown territory". It is powerful enough to overcome my resistance to fear of the unknown, and for the first time in I don't know how long, the "I feel lost, I don't know how to handle this" is coming up. It's not always fun to go through, but it's very impressive and it means that finally, FINALLY, I have a way to make subs that will make progress that I couldn't make before. I'm sure this will be the case for a lot of people who were stuck previously as well.
The headache and nausea is a lot less today than yesterday. And given how smooth this program feels otherwise, if this is resistance I have to say it's pretty amazing how powerful the program is to make it this bearable.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
