Shannon's LTU v6 Journal

[Shannon]

Yesterday I was tired enough that I had to rely on caffeine to stay functional and get my allotted work done for the day.  I only achieved my minimum goal, but given how stupid ridiculous this program is to build without the help of some software I have not yet created, I was really glad to be able to just achieve the minimums I set for myself.  Day before yesterday I only achieved about 60% of those minimums.  This program is definitely using a lot of energy mentally to do what it's doing.

Last night was our first night off for Cycle 1.  I played 1 loop of Tranquilizer B, but GF just ignored it and laid there awake for probably more than an hour.  I fell asleep after about 45 minutes of listening to see if she would fall asleep.  It really annoys me when she does that.  I see I have to rebuild the damned sleep aid again, for the 9th time, trying to get her to execute.  She executes unless her subconscious is nervous, and during LTU6 she has been nervous a lot because of how demanding the program is.  At least this time, I know how to build it with a major power increase; the new scripting methods and Platinum Lake were not in use when I built Tranquilizer B.

She and one of my other testers are extreme pains in my ass when it comes to getting them to execute the sleep induction programs.  I know I will get there, but when am I going to have time to build a damned upgrade?

Anyway, enough ranting.  I woke up this morning feeling like I felt right before I went to bed last night: exhausted.  I did not want to get up.  GF has this little inside joke with me where she tells me she's hungry by saying, "Hung-ga-ree-ree!"  That's her way of telling me, "Hey, get up, I wanna eat."  I was not ready to get up, but I did.  Had breakfast, and now my eyes feel like they're melting out of my head because my body is focused on digesting the food.  I can tell that LTU6 S1 is very busy making major changes in me at a lot of levels and in a lot of directions at once.  Two times during this cycle, I felt a sort of "I don't know what's going on" feeling... like I was lost because I was busy changing, and what was "normal" wasn't present.  There was only the shuffling and change  process.  Kind of like having all the employees of a large firm move everything in one company skyscraper to the skyscraper next door.  While they're in process, no work gets done and everything is in a chaotic state of change.  But the change will quickly result in something much better, that I can definitely feel.

During this cycle I have been noticing that I am becoming more patient.  Normally whenever I have to take a break during work to let my mind relax so I don't run out of energy, I play a video game for 20-30 minutes.  This work I am doing is so boring, tedious and mind-numbing that I can't just watch YouTube videos and learn stuff while I take that break; I have to play a game to let my brain fully relax.  So I decided to play Sniper Elite 4 again.  The frustration comes with this being the fourth controller in a row that has developed problems that will require that I replace it, and every one of them has done so within 3 months of owning it.  Usually within 2 weeks.

Previously, the first three all developed issues that would force the camera to pan up or pan left continuously.  This new controller, which my GF bought for me as a gift trying to make me happy a couple months ago, now has developed an issue where the left stick sticks in such a way that while I am playing, it will not let me stop running.  So if I run from one place to another, and let go of the left stick, it just keeps going.  This results in me running off cliffs, running through the bush into enemy camps, etc.  This of course frustrates me.  Not just that Sony puts out such garbage that 4 controllers in a row ($75 a pop) have been broken by normal usage (not thrown) within 2-8 weeks, but that the results get me killed in the game a lot.  

I actually stopped playing with my PlayStation for a long time before she got me this new controller because of this.  The previous 3 controllers made it impossible to aim to take a shot.  Now this one makes me run off cliffs and run straight into enemy camps, only to be gunned down.  Before LTU6s1, I would have to restrain myself from throwing the controller and then go outside and calm down for a while.  Now I am finding it much easier to stop before I get that upset, and calm down.

If anyone from Sony is reading this... I will not be buying a PlayStation 5.  As much as I don't like Microsoft, at least their controllers never gave me any issues.  The only reason I had to replace a Microsoft controller was because I would get frustrated when the game itself (I'm looking at you, World of Tanks) would screw up on a bug and get me killed.  I went to Sony because everyone told me how much better they were.  Get a PlayStation, they said.  It's so much better, they said.  Well only if you like being frustrated constantly and having to either waste your time requesting warranty replacement, or waste your money buying another one of their crappy controllers!  Forget it.  I'm going back to XBox when I buy another console.  Unless I buy myself a dedicated gaming computer.  But neither of those things is going to happen anytime soon, so I'm stuck with don't play, or waste my time on warranty requests or money on a new controller.

Screw you, Sony.

But yes, I'm much more patient when Sony screws up now.

I can tell today I am going to have to rely on caffeine to be productive.  My face feels odd, my eyes feel like they're melting, and I am feeling like I haven't slept in almost 24 hours.  I've been awake for just about 3 hours now.  Maybe less.  I can't afford to sleep more today, since I have to keep going on this job or it will never get done... what I am doing now used to take me 1-2 hours.  Now it takes me 32 hours.  Thanks, Platinum Lake.  /sarcasm

Anyway... enough of my complainery.  Time to go inject some caffeine into my brain and get back to work.  I can't wait until the software I am designing right now is finished.  It will be able to do this 32 hours worth of work in about 1 second.  The only issue I have is... I haven't written code in about 10 years, and the language I use has changed a lot in that time.  I have to re-learn it.  And who has time?  By the time I'm done with my day's minimum work, I'm shot.  If I can even make it to that point.  Sometimes I wish I could just stop using subliminals for a while and focus on work, but this isn't just about me.  I have to consider what GF needs also.

So in summary, LTUv6s1: Super powerful, making lots of good changes quickly, wearing me out in the process.  Right when I most need to have energy.  Day 1 off, this thing is going full steam ahead.  Just wow.

Now where did I put that Mio Energy?

Wow sounds like LTU6 is a hard hitter. Haha 


Maybe you and your GF can take turns cooking breakfast and other meals so you can get your sleep in haha

We do that.  It doesn't help.  lol