02-07-2024, 12:33 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-07-2024, 12:37 AM by Johannesbrst.)
Shannon,
I've been meaning to write to you for a while about this topic, but haven't really found the words to articulate it. I ran AM some years back, and my energetic system/maturity wasn't ready for it. I wasn't in touch with myself when starting it, and tried to run it almost as an escape for dealing with my problems, living in the delusion of suddenly just "appearing as an Alpha Male". This caused the issue of my lack of contact with myself to only worsen, and I tried to control everything around me to help sustain the illusion of me "becoming Alpha". Ultimately it made me highly dissociated and left in a place worse than I was to start with.
I'm not writing this as to blame the program, but rather what I've learned in the journey to overcome dissociation, and to get back in touch with myself, which primarily is to get back in touch with my body, and how it maybe can help the next AM to work better even for the hard cases, which I am putting myself, ot at least the person I was back then, into.
I've noticed that the people that have a strong masculine energy, are often very much in touch with their physical bodies. When they move around you can sense that they "inhibit" their bodies more than the general person. They seem comfortable, strong and simply relaxed. Working trough the tensions in my own body, experiencing the sensations of fear and other uncomfortable emotions, I have grown more to "inhibit" my body as well, feeling more comfortable around people, not getting wound up what other people do or nor, say or not, and finding a peace in simply "being".
I'm not sure on how this would relate to building out the new AM, but I feel that it's an absolute necessity to have the connection to your body in place before building upon to character. I'm not there yet, the process is slow, tedious and has taken me daily work for years, working with meditation and conscious effort into staying present in your body and experiencing what need to be experienced to release it, bit by bit. But I'm getting there.
I came to think about @NOMAD writing about how Maverick has helped him stay more comfortable even in close proximity with others, perhaps Maverick has helped him achieve this in some direction.
I just though I would share this with you, as I'm imagining the process to figure out how to take AM6 into AM7 already has started somewhere in the back of your head, and how much I believe this would help us getting to a place of calm and strong masculinity, and the challenges it takes to overcome what keep us from being fully present in our physical bodies. Perhaps even it could be an idea to have a "AM-primer" that would help the user achieve this in their own time, as a first step in embarking on the AM journey.
I've been meaning to write to you for a while about this topic, but haven't really found the words to articulate it. I ran AM some years back, and my energetic system/maturity wasn't ready for it. I wasn't in touch with myself when starting it, and tried to run it almost as an escape for dealing with my problems, living in the delusion of suddenly just "appearing as an Alpha Male". This caused the issue of my lack of contact with myself to only worsen, and I tried to control everything around me to help sustain the illusion of me "becoming Alpha". Ultimately it made me highly dissociated and left in a place worse than I was to start with.
I'm not writing this as to blame the program, but rather what I've learned in the journey to overcome dissociation, and to get back in touch with myself, which primarily is to get back in touch with my body, and how it maybe can help the next AM to work better even for the hard cases, which I am putting myself, ot at least the person I was back then, into.
I've noticed that the people that have a strong masculine energy, are often very much in touch with their physical bodies. When they move around you can sense that they "inhibit" their bodies more than the general person. They seem comfortable, strong and simply relaxed. Working trough the tensions in my own body, experiencing the sensations of fear and other uncomfortable emotions, I have grown more to "inhibit" my body as well, feeling more comfortable around people, not getting wound up what other people do or nor, say or not, and finding a peace in simply "being".
I'm not sure on how this would relate to building out the new AM, but I feel that it's an absolute necessity to have the connection to your body in place before building upon to character. I'm not there yet, the process is slow, tedious and has taken me daily work for years, working with meditation and conscious effort into staying present in your body and experiencing what need to be experienced to release it, bit by bit. But I'm getting there.
I came to think about @NOMAD writing about how Maverick has helped him stay more comfortable even in close proximity with others, perhaps Maverick has helped him achieve this in some direction.
I just though I would share this with you, as I'm imagining the process to figure out how to take AM6 into AM7 already has started somewhere in the back of your head, and how much I believe this would help us getting to a place of calm and strong masculinity, and the challenges it takes to overcome what keep us from being fully present in our physical bodies. Perhaps even it could be an idea to have a "AM-primer" that would help the user achieve this in their own time, as a first step in embarking on the AM journey.
