Shannon's DMSI 3.01-A Journal V2

[Shannon]

While I was working on upgrading 3.0.1 to 3.1 just now, two things came to me.

1. The two ideas I had for including in DMSI are already there. (Damn I am good.)
2. This morning when I went to breakfast, I couldn't feel the aura projecting. It turns out that DMSI, through NS and OE, directed me to use the pheromones that I did to get the same level of results DMSI is trying to achieve through the aura. I am busy healing and clearing, so it found other ways to do this while that is true. This fits with the "whatever it takes, make it happen" programming in DMSI. Amazing!

Some part of me feels very frustrated right now, but I don't know why.

Wait your working on upgrading dmsi right away? That's fast.

I don't have the result yet. At first I was productive now I just feel depressed and unmotivated. Sometimes I feel like crying. Then intense emotional pain. What is painful is that sometimes I feel this at work: emotional pain, undeserving-ness, all missed opportunities, the moment I didn't take chances, etc. I really feel like crying, I never thought I have this much pain in me. Damn.. I really hope this will be over soon. I really want to feel joy.

Like you, I feel frustrated also with a mix of uneasiness and impatient. I'm also sleepy and unfocused.

I am working on it bits and pieces at a time. My main focus is MHS. It is going to take me a long time to upgrade it fully to DMSI 3.1-RELEASE.

Know that your pain is not in vain. You reporting it helps me improve the program. I will have to strengthen the emotional shielding.