01-12-2016, 03:21 PM
Well, I read the book, and I find a lot of faulty logic in it.
I'm not sure I follow you on the closed mindedness, or what you mean by being a scientist instead of a leader. Whether or not you or I like it or want it, I am both, and I must continue to be both. Believe me, I would love to disappear for a while and pop back up with the finished product, having spent all my time just doing R&D. But I have a forum full of people who need my input, because without it there are misunderstandings that grow over time.
As to my own BAMM journey, I spent the two weeks I was sick using MIR instead of BAMM, and I could definitely see a difference by the end. I justify doing that by the realization that MIR kept me from having to go to the hospital and spend probably several hundred or perhaps thousands more on medical bills. So in a strange sort of way, it was helping me achieve my goal.
What told me that I was needing to go back was a combination of lowered motivation and the realization that my ego was no longer being expressed or dealt with reasonably. I have been back on BAMM since I guess the 3rd or 4th of January, 2016, and both of these are benefitting greatly. It is also helping to guide me in other ways.
BAMM is also helping me stay the course when I feel like what I'm trying to do is hopeless. For instance, the whole thing with AP code, BAMM helped me conclude that that is of secondary importance to actually making new stuff, and so I put that down for the time being to focus on making new stuff. The AP situation was becoming a useless blockage.
There is also the feeling that I will never get to my goal with the 6G prototype. It's amazingly powerful now, and yet somehow it doesn't seem like that's enough. I see the light at the end of the tunnel, and yet somehow it still seems hopeless because every time I think I have the one that's going to finally break through that glass ceiling, I don't. It's baby steps every time in terms of outwardly obvious.
The power of this thing is incredible, but it's not outwardly obvious yet. The end goal is that it needs to be not just effective, but that it needs to achieve a specific goal in a very obvious way and in a really short amount of time. Right now it's working, but it isn't working to spec. Each iteration gets me closer, but it's always baby steps, and quite frankly I feel like I am getting tired of working on this when it's been over a year and a half now and I am still only making baby steps. No matter how close I get, it always seems just out of reach. BAMM is helping me remain focused, regardless of these feelings. I know I'll get there, but I need to put it down for a while and come back to it. Problem is, I can't do that because it's too complex, and I would not be able to remember everything I need to know to keep working on it if I did.
But, all this is from the perspective of baby steps. If I was to demonstrate this thing to someone who has never seen anything but 5G, one of two things would happen. Either they would be unable to see it doing anything (basically because that glass ceiling hasn't yet been broken), or they would be shock-and-awed, if they could see and comprehend what it is actually doing. The goal for the final is 20 minutes. Right now I have it operating at about 1.5 hours for the tests I am able to do, and I am not sure that is where it really is operating, because various things may be pushing the time back artificially and I simply don't have the funding to clear those away during testing just yet. Perhaps that is for the best, as it will only push me further in achieving the goal.
Whatever the case is, as exhausted as I feel right now, I know the end result is coming, and I know it will arrive. I am pretty sure I know when, at this point, too, but it is still something of a waiting game at the moment.
Perseverance is one of the key attributes of all self made millionaires.
But regardless of everything, I can feel change coming nd I know things will begin shifting shortly. Until then, there is more work to be done.
I wonder if it will be one particular title that makes me achieve this goal.
I'm not sure I follow you on the closed mindedness, or what you mean by being a scientist instead of a leader. Whether or not you or I like it or want it, I am both, and I must continue to be both. Believe me, I would love to disappear for a while and pop back up with the finished product, having spent all my time just doing R&D. But I have a forum full of people who need my input, because without it there are misunderstandings that grow over time.
As to my own BAMM journey, I spent the two weeks I was sick using MIR instead of BAMM, and I could definitely see a difference by the end. I justify doing that by the realization that MIR kept me from having to go to the hospital and spend probably several hundred or perhaps thousands more on medical bills. So in a strange sort of way, it was helping me achieve my goal.
What told me that I was needing to go back was a combination of lowered motivation and the realization that my ego was no longer being expressed or dealt with reasonably. I have been back on BAMM since I guess the 3rd or 4th of January, 2016, and both of these are benefitting greatly. It is also helping to guide me in other ways.
BAMM is also helping me stay the course when I feel like what I'm trying to do is hopeless. For instance, the whole thing with AP code, BAMM helped me conclude that that is of secondary importance to actually making new stuff, and so I put that down for the time being to focus on making new stuff. The AP situation was becoming a useless blockage.
There is also the feeling that I will never get to my goal with the 6G prototype. It's amazingly powerful now, and yet somehow it doesn't seem like that's enough. I see the light at the end of the tunnel, and yet somehow it still seems hopeless because every time I think I have the one that's going to finally break through that glass ceiling, I don't. It's baby steps every time in terms of outwardly obvious.
The power of this thing is incredible, but it's not outwardly obvious yet. The end goal is that it needs to be not just effective, but that it needs to achieve a specific goal in a very obvious way and in a really short amount of time. Right now it's working, but it isn't working to spec. Each iteration gets me closer, but it's always baby steps, and quite frankly I feel like I am getting tired of working on this when it's been over a year and a half now and I am still only making baby steps. No matter how close I get, it always seems just out of reach. BAMM is helping me remain focused, regardless of these feelings. I know I'll get there, but I need to put it down for a while and come back to it. Problem is, I can't do that because it's too complex, and I would not be able to remember everything I need to know to keep working on it if I did.
But, all this is from the perspective of baby steps. If I was to demonstrate this thing to someone who has never seen anything but 5G, one of two things would happen. Either they would be unable to see it doing anything (basically because that glass ceiling hasn't yet been broken), or they would be shock-and-awed, if they could see and comprehend what it is actually doing. The goal for the final is 20 minutes. Right now I have it operating at about 1.5 hours for the tests I am able to do, and I am not sure that is where it really is operating, because various things may be pushing the time back artificially and I simply don't have the funding to clear those away during testing just yet. Perhaps that is for the best, as it will only push me further in achieving the goal.
Whatever the case is, as exhausted as I feel right now, I know the end result is coming, and I know it will arrive. I am pretty sure I know when, at this point, too, but it is still something of a waiting game at the moment.
Perseverance is one of the key attributes of all self made millionaires.
But regardless of everything, I can feel change coming nd I know things will begin shifting shortly. Until then, there is more work to be done.
I wonder if it will be one particular title that makes me achieve this goal.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
