Shannon's BAMM 2.0 Journal

[Shannon]

As to the dissipation of fear, yes, that aspect of this program is absolutely amazing to me. It's taking longer than I expected to clear all my fears, but I am so free of them now that I can do things I would never have imagined before I started. Situations that would have made me flip out and have a panic attack previously, now it's along the lines of, "Well of this goes wrong, that would suck for a little while." It's just really no big deal anymore, and life is vastly easier and more enjoyable as a result. I'm also free to pursue things that could lead to wealth that were way outside my league previously. And I'm working myself to crazy hours, and people have started calling me a workaholic, but they all look at me with almost a sense of awe now, since I work so hard because I enjoy doing what I do. in spite of calling me that, I believe they envy me my passion and motivation and joy in doing what I do.

I never have a shortage of ideas for how to make more money anymore. The only challenge I now face is, how fast can I develop these ideas, and how much can I work? It's frustrating having to take time to sleep and eat and clean my body because that's time I could be working on creating a new cologne or perfume, or a new subliminal, or researching new options for the MPME 6G prototype, etc. I have even found ways to work while I am eating, sleeping, playing Skyrim (which I typically only do at the rare request of a friend who enjoys watching me play), driving and showering... because my mind never stops working on how to advance myself and solve my challenges to becoming wealthy.

I love what I do with such passion that I frequently lose myself in my work for an entire 12+ hour span of time without eating because I am so fascinated or focused. And working the equivalent of two 8-hour shifts is not a problem. I do it now more than I ever did it working for someone else.

And yet somehow, the work still piles up faster than I can tackle, and yet somehow I never feel overwhelmed. I just keep working... and this has to be BAMM, because before I know I would have become overwhelmed, and then lost it. Gotten depressed, worried about how I could ever handle all this work, and in my hopelessness, probably would have given up. Now? Yeah, ok, so my work queue is a year or more deep and it's getting deeper every day, but so what? I can't do it all unless I keep going. So lets see what's interesting for today! Now I focus on the job at hand, and it allows me to be vastly more productive than I would be otherwise.