Shannon's BAMM 2.0 Journal

[Shannon]

I am finding myself existing in two times at once. I am now so aware of this future I am projecting myself into that it becomes me, and I sometimes feel myself as I will be then, but it is now. The way it feels to be that wealthy is amazing... it is a profound relaxation of the soul. There is no worry over money, and when the sun rises, all paths are open to me. I can do literally anything, and when I am in that awareness, it seems as nothing to spend a quarter or half a million dollars on a new house (for instance) at a whim, simply because it pleases me. I see myself having a second house, and it is hard to think back now to when one house was all I knew... it is as if I have remembered that I was always destined for this. Sometimes during dreams I am in this future reality also, and it feels so real that I question whether I am dreaming, or experiencing a different time through projection. The difference between now and then blurs and I know it is real, as I know my car awaits me when I walk out of my house. The balance point is near, and I am crossing over. That reality, the one in which I am a multi-millionaire, becomes more and more manifest and I am now finding that my old reality is starting to fade.

I have also found myself a woman who seems to live for my will and pleasure. She is everything I was looking for, with only one exception, and that can be rectified. But she seems to live to serve and please me, and is willing to do, be or give anything for me. Her own desires seem unimportant to her, as long as I am pleased with her. The degree to which this is true is such that I dare not even speak it publicly.

It is taking some getting used to, as I have dissolved my ego to the level that leading to the degree she wishes me to (almost 100%) requires some effort beyond the Zen stillness of spirit I have been existing in otherwise. I have had only one other woman be so intent on pleasing me, and never before has it been a genuinely selfless desire as it is with this one.

I find myself in awe of the life I am living now, and it is only getting better.

I have also noted that I seem to have located a billionaire in my town, and seem to be slowly tracing the probabilities to meeting him. This should be interesting to observe in the unfolding.