Shannon's BAMM 2.0 Journal

[Shannon]

I'm surprised it happened so fast for you that you were able to start letting go of people. I see BAMM is really working well for you in the fears department. Very nice. I have actually started pushing and listening to more hours per day to help me get through this, because I have noticed that the more time I spend using it, the more "flowed" I seem to become.

I can sense a transformation taking place, the majority of which is not yet finished, and it will be as if some of me falls away and what is left is freed to fly. But the program is absolutely life changing, and that became ridiculously apparent almost from day one.

I have a good sense of what's coming. I am starting to get ideas, which turn into imaginings, which repeat themselves and after a certain amount of repetitions, I realize... this is something that's going to happen to/for me. Like lately I have been "seeing" myself enjoying having an in-ground pool in my back yard, and having friends over and cookouts... well right now there's trees where the pool would have to be. I went out into the back yard and actually wandered around and allowed this image of how it will look to play in my mind as I did. Those trees are definitely going to come out if this pool does happen... and I think it'll take a couple years, but I think this pool is really going to happen. I can feel that probability growing more and more solid. If/when I sell this house, it'll be worth a lot more than it is now, because I'll have renovated the house and yard and made my house the envy of everyone on the block with how sharp it looks.

I can't always feel how I'll get from here to point B, but I know Point B is coming. And it feels good to know, because it allows me to relax in a sense. Or maybe that's just the fear destruction at work. Just keep going, and it'll happen.