03-29-2013, 04:16 PM
I've had one night,where it was a very very long dark night of the soul...the rest while using BAMM,have been challenging in other ways,such needing to improve my own self discipline as in getting my ass outt bed in the morning and going to work or outta bed at 6 to get ready for work at my other night job two nights a week.Once the guilt fear and shame levels come off,then the REAL
discipline to ge things done that are nessasary like a roof over my head food on the table,transprtation,ect all hav eto be handeled. Other than that over all BAMM is really doing wonders for me under the surface and in my socializing here and there,more powerfully expressed as a person.
something else Im noticing is that the freinds I once held in near dear esteem ,two in particular, tha tits time to let the distance between us continue and allow the drifting apart process to continue. I Jus tdont have time nor interest for those that choose or refuse to invest in my life,like picking up the phone and calling me for a change or chekcing in with me about MY Life and related.
over it. If you dont have time for me I damn shure dont have time for you,PERIOD! I was this way before but even more so,now, since I've been on BAMM. I Knew it was gonna be about letting go of people,places and things at some point while using BAMM,its talks about it in the description of Goals IN BAMM. ONe) it makes me react with G' damn it I've gotta be more self reliant,who needs these people who really arent there for me,the way I Need it when I need it,over all ,ect and #2) I've gotta establish newer,better connections in time I Believe the OE in BAMM will 'get me there'.
Lastly for now.... it appears that I will be relocating sooner than I thot, via " Hapenstance"( yeah right!:-) I'd had a Amtrak Ticket on reserve hold for 6 weeks now,just in case, gotta good deal with the help of friend that works at the train service,if the 'right' roommate doesn't show up here in the next two weeks,IM outta here, April 31st or the Morning of the 1st. of May. It Very well May be that BAMM is moving me onward to MY Highest and Best Good,for down the road...'getting me' to where I Need to be, to further these Goals. We'll See,what happens it all dependings on how things go here in the next 2 1/2 weeks or less. Keith.
discipline to ge things done that are nessasary like a roof over my head food on the table,transprtation,ect all hav eto be handeled. Other than that over all BAMM is really doing wonders for me under the surface and in my socializing here and there,more powerfully expressed as a person.
something else Im noticing is that the freinds I once held in near dear esteem ,two in particular, tha tits time to let the distance between us continue and allow the drifting apart process to continue. I Jus tdont have time nor interest for those that choose or refuse to invest in my life,like picking up the phone and calling me for a change or chekcing in with me about MY Life and related.
over it. If you dont have time for me I damn shure dont have time for you,PERIOD! I was this way before but even more so,now, since I've been on BAMM. I Knew it was gonna be about letting go of people,places and things at some point while using BAMM,its talks about it in the description of Goals IN BAMM. ONe) it makes me react with G' damn it I've gotta be more self reliant,who needs these people who really arent there for me,the way I Need it when I need it,over all ,ect and #2) I've gotta establish newer,better connections in time I Believe the OE in BAMM will 'get me there'.
Lastly for now.... it appears that I will be relocating sooner than I thot, via " Hapenstance"( yeah right!:-) I'd had a Amtrak Ticket on reserve hold for 6 weeks now,just in case, gotta good deal with the help of friend that works at the train service,if the 'right' roommate doesn't show up here in the next two weeks,IM outta here, April 31st or the Morning of the 1st. of May. It Very well May be that BAMM is moving me onward to MY Highest and Best Good,for down the road...'getting me' to where I Need to be, to further these Goals. We'll See,what happens it all dependings on how things go here in the next 2 1/2 weeks or less. Keith.
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er.""Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!"
