08-10-2016, 09:31 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-10-2016, 09:33 PM by Jason Capital.)
A. Today I had better and long sleep of 9 hours in the long time and I had one dream wherein:
1. I saw my ex as teaching something. And she was glowing and I maintain eye contact for some time then I removed my eye contact.
2. I was in the classroom with my 7th grade crush and she sat behind me. And she began to touch me and I don't know how it all happened and where she touched but I also moved my hand between her legs or thighs I don't remember but then I slowly moved my hand to her vagina and she also had initiated her touch to my penis. And I don't remember much but it was freaking good dream and when I woke up, I thought I would never forget this dream and now when I am writing this, I don't remember much of it.
B. One girl I barely knew texted me and asked me if I want her books?
And I said, yea sure. And I congratulated on her success.
Then I asked her how can I collect it.
And she told me she is out the state and she will call me when she will come back in the next week.
I said sure.
My point, if she is not even in the state, then why to contact me this much earlier.
And, I had met her for 3 or 4 minutes and we exchanged the numbers and it was purely the study talk and nothing else.
And after such a long time, out of the blue, she asks me if I want her books?
C. Two of my school friends had called and one of them is sending me texts all the time and it's kinda strange because I mostly had conflicts and fights with one of them on a constant basis. That doesn't make sense.
D. I had come to the conclusion that I had some issues that I have to heal, let go, remove, release or overcome:
1. Whenever girls are not throwing themselves to me, or constantly showing me IOI's, I have some negative feeling inside me and it makes me sad.
2. Whenever I stand up for myself, I feel like I have done something good and in the next few minutes, my state just drops to zero, I feel extremely bad and nothing works. Like anything I do to overcome this feeling, does not help. I have done some i) face exercise, ii) moving my body, like doing something crazy iii) becoming aware of my body, energy, my emotions, iv) Changing my physiology v) Using language patterns vi) positive thinking vii) Visualizing and remembering good times viii) Reframing the situation in my mind ix) NLP fast forward, slow down, adding funny voices, third person disassociated view. And everything works and make me feel good for a moment. But it instantly comes back and I couldn't fight it or let it go.
3. Whenever I am out with my friends, sometimes for no reason obvious or anything, my state just drops and I don't feel good or it's kinda worst feeling. It's like in one moment I am extremely happy and invincible but in the next I am down for no reason.
1. I saw my ex as teaching something. And she was glowing and I maintain eye contact for some time then I removed my eye contact.
2. I was in the classroom with my 7th grade crush and she sat behind me. And she began to touch me and I don't know how it all happened and where she touched but I also moved my hand between her legs or thighs I don't remember but then I slowly moved my hand to her vagina and she also had initiated her touch to my penis. And I don't remember much but it was freaking good dream and when I woke up, I thought I would never forget this dream and now when I am writing this, I don't remember much of it.
B. One girl I barely knew texted me and asked me if I want her books?
And I said, yea sure. And I congratulated on her success.
Then I asked her how can I collect it.
And she told me she is out the state and she will call me when she will come back in the next week.
I said sure.
My point, if she is not even in the state, then why to contact me this much earlier.
And, I had met her for 3 or 4 minutes and we exchanged the numbers and it was purely the study talk and nothing else.
And after such a long time, out of the blue, she asks me if I want her books?
C. Two of my school friends had called and one of them is sending me texts all the time and it's kinda strange because I mostly had conflicts and fights with one of them on a constant basis. That doesn't make sense.
D. I had come to the conclusion that I had some issues that I have to heal, let go, remove, release or overcome:
1. Whenever girls are not throwing themselves to me, or constantly showing me IOI's, I have some negative feeling inside me and it makes me sad.
2. Whenever I stand up for myself, I feel like I have done something good and in the next few minutes, my state just drops to zero, I feel extremely bad and nothing works. Like anything I do to overcome this feeling, does not help. I have done some i) face exercise, ii) moving my body, like doing something crazy iii) becoming aware of my body, energy, my emotions, iv) Changing my physiology v) Using language patterns vi) positive thinking vii) Visualizing and remembering good times viii) Reframing the situation in my mind ix) NLP fast forward, slow down, adding funny voices, third person disassociated view. And everything works and make me feel good for a moment. But it instantly comes back and I couldn't fight it or let it go.
3. Whenever I am out with my friends, sometimes for no reason obvious or anything, my state just drops and I don't feel good or it's kinda worst feeling. It's like in one moment I am extremely happy and invincible but in the next I am down for no reason.
