Ya know, I seem to fight or atleast not go with nature and or what I want, I feel, or I know I should do, I hold myself back, in many things in life.
I have been thinking alot and I mean alot about women and sex lately, I unfortunately have been watching more porn also, but I am going to try to stop that. But that is what I have done all my life, start to think about the opposite sex and watch adult material and then I stop wanting the real thing, sad but true.
I also have been wanting to get out and just feel so bored sitting at home lately. I usually fight the urge as I really don't like going out alone, especially to the bars, but again maybe this is something I will have to work on. I do have a buddy who I think goes out alot, but I feel bad as I know he has a wife and works ALOT. But he is a really good guy and just a real kind of people person, or seems to get along with everyone, then again nobody really messes with him as he has a reputation not to be screwed with. But I will have to see if I can hang with him more, as I know he does love going out.
I was also wondering, if Shannon happens to read this, or anyone who wants to chime in, if there was a way to kind of psychically seduce somebody. Like the other day, I was at work and was working near this incredibly hot chick, and was just kind of trying to implant certain reactions that happen when a woman is.....revved up, so to speak. Now nothing happened, but I do happen to think it is not in the realm of impossibility. Also she has a boyfriend and a child with him, so I would not try anything with her anyway.
Besides the increased want of sex, I don't really know if there is anything else I have noticed, actually I do feel more relaxed around people. More likely to speak and not just think about speaking, feel like I can express myself better, which is actually a nice thing as I know what I usually want to say in my head but most of the time people either don't listen or it does not come out right, atleast how I kind of heard it in my head.
And not that I am around alot of people, I am still kind of a shut in. But I have had the urge to just go out and do something, anything, I usually don't, but I am hoping that will change.
I just saw Dark Knight Rises, and it was AWESOME. And while I don't know anybody in Aurora, my deepest sympathies and prayers go out to all the victims and their families. What is going on with people now a days?
I have been trying to keep up on my qi gong practice, but with the watching of porn and the usual event that follows, my energy has not been what it should be, which is another reason I really have to stop with the adult entertainment.
Thats about it for now.
I have been thinking alot and I mean alot about women and sex lately, I unfortunately have been watching more porn also, but I am going to try to stop that. But that is what I have done all my life, start to think about the opposite sex and watch adult material and then I stop wanting the real thing, sad but true.
I also have been wanting to get out and just feel so bored sitting at home lately. I usually fight the urge as I really don't like going out alone, especially to the bars, but again maybe this is something I will have to work on. I do have a buddy who I think goes out alot, but I feel bad as I know he has a wife and works ALOT. But he is a really good guy and just a real kind of people person, or seems to get along with everyone, then again nobody really messes with him as he has a reputation not to be screwed with. But I will have to see if I can hang with him more, as I know he does love going out.
I was also wondering, if Shannon happens to read this, or anyone who wants to chime in, if there was a way to kind of psychically seduce somebody. Like the other day, I was at work and was working near this incredibly hot chick, and was just kind of trying to implant certain reactions that happen when a woman is.....revved up, so to speak. Now nothing happened, but I do happen to think it is not in the realm of impossibility. Also she has a boyfriend and a child with him, so I would not try anything with her anyway.
Besides the increased want of sex, I don't really know if there is anything else I have noticed, actually I do feel more relaxed around people. More likely to speak and not just think about speaking, feel like I can express myself better, which is actually a nice thing as I know what I usually want to say in my head but most of the time people either don't listen or it does not come out right, atleast how I kind of heard it in my head.
And not that I am around alot of people, I am still kind of a shut in. But I have had the urge to just go out and do something, anything, I usually don't, but I am hoping that will change.
I just saw Dark Knight Rises, and it was AWESOME. And while I don't know anybody in Aurora, my deepest sympathies and prayers go out to all the victims and their families. What is going on with people now a days?
I have been trying to keep up on my qi gong practice, but with the watching of porn and the usual event that follows, my energy has not been what it should be, which is another reason I really have to stop with the adult entertainment.
Thats about it for now.
"Personality is the extent to which the individual has learned to convert his energies into habits or actions which successfully influence other people.
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet
