03-06-2012, 01:39 AM
I have been having resistance the last couple of days, I forgot how much resistance really kind of sucks, I know part of the process, but still. Anyway, just been really tired, really down, having thoughts that I have been in this rut for seems most of my life and I will never get out of it.
That I do not deserve success in anything, I have actually noticed just once, that I was actually having a conversation with myself on why I do not deserve good things in my life, it was pretty weird when I think about it, I was in that hypnogogic or in between waking and sleeping state and was actually it seemed arguing with the more positive programming.
Well something actually happened at work tonight, long story short, hopefully, I was blamed for something that I do not think was my fault, now I am the one who set up this piece of equipment and nobody got hurt or anything bad like,but it basically broke, and I was wondering if my subconscious could actually cause something physical to sabotage me. I wonder this because for the rest of the night people in my area were calling me stupid and being more like assholes than usual, which is probably not hard for them. They were basically me feel like I am a failure and that I do not do anything right, which while not the first time I have received feedback like that, tonight it was really on. And of course it did not really end up affecting anything in terms of when we got done, and really no extra work for them.
So if you happen to read this Shannon, if you could give me your thoughts on this, could my subconscious actually cause something physical, or cause somebody to use it incorrectly and therefore sabotage me?
I am still on ultra success, added the psychic sub a few days ago, but will keep them up until I feel no resistance from ultra success and then quit both for the time being and move to to the alpha male 2011 review for a few weeks and then on to sex magnet.
And at one point I just stopped talking trying to explain myself and did not care what they said, just focused on my work and I did not care about they're negativity.
Not sure if the question or story is clear enough to get an idea and answer or thoughts, if not just let me know and I could explain more.
Thanks for any thoughts.
That I do not deserve success in anything, I have actually noticed just once, that I was actually having a conversation with myself on why I do not deserve good things in my life, it was pretty weird when I think about it, I was in that hypnogogic or in between waking and sleeping state and was actually it seemed arguing with the more positive programming.
Well something actually happened at work tonight, long story short, hopefully, I was blamed for something that I do not think was my fault, now I am the one who set up this piece of equipment and nobody got hurt or anything bad like,but it basically broke, and I was wondering if my subconscious could actually cause something physical to sabotage me. I wonder this because for the rest of the night people in my area were calling me stupid and being more like assholes than usual, which is probably not hard for them. They were basically me feel like I am a failure and that I do not do anything right, which while not the first time I have received feedback like that, tonight it was really on. And of course it did not really end up affecting anything in terms of when we got done, and really no extra work for them.
So if you happen to read this Shannon, if you could give me your thoughts on this, could my subconscious actually cause something physical, or cause somebody to use it incorrectly and therefore sabotage me?
I am still on ultra success, added the psychic sub a few days ago, but will keep them up until I feel no resistance from ultra success and then quit both for the time being and move to to the alpha male 2011 review for a few weeks and then on to sex magnet.
And at one point I just stopped talking trying to explain myself and did not care what they said, just focused on my work and I did not care about they're negativity.
Not sure if the question or story is clear enough to get an idea and answer or thoughts, if not just let me know and I could explain more.
Thanks for any thoughts.
"Personality is the extent to which the individual has learned to convert his energies into habits or actions which successfully influence other people.
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet
