11-13-2021, 03:12 AM
stage 2 day 21
nofap 19/180
wow, last night dream was amazing, I wish it will be real soon.
I was doing some job I dont know exactly what it was, I was feeling very very confident, feeling like able to do anything I want, than a girl came over from somewhere, she came near to me and hit me with laughing pretending to she felt. Then I grap her arms and told her: hey girl, I know what you are doing. We have to meet, what are you doing tomorrow night?, she said not tomorrow, today. Then I grapped her to my room we started fucking like in movies, slowly, it was too erotic.
My big issue was a cause of watching porn and masturbation, that shit was draining my sexual energy and I wasn't able to look for a real partner, because I didn't needed. Porn was very easy and gave me limitless options. All I did was watching porn and masturbate whenever I was available, I continuously run from a relationship with a real girl, because I wasn't know what I was gonna do with her and I didn't have any desire, lust, energy because of already watching porn and masturbate.
This vicious circle caused more and more. social anxiety, low self-esteem, self-shame... When I look at a girl, was feeling like what I did is shameful, even looking, forget about approaching.
Reading about nofap stories and scientific researches about it shows me, this was causing most of my problems with changing plasticity of the brain. Doing a 6 months of nofap to see, how it will change.
nofap 19/180
wow, last night dream was amazing, I wish it will be real soon.
I was doing some job I dont know exactly what it was, I was feeling very very confident, feeling like able to do anything I want, than a girl came over from somewhere, she came near to me and hit me with laughing pretending to she felt. Then I grap her arms and told her: hey girl, I know what you are doing. We have to meet, what are you doing tomorrow night?, she said not tomorrow, today. Then I grapped her to my room we started fucking like in movies, slowly, it was too erotic.
My big issue was a cause of watching porn and masturbation, that shit was draining my sexual energy and I wasn't able to look for a real partner, because I didn't needed. Porn was very easy and gave me limitless options. All I did was watching porn and masturbate whenever I was available, I continuously run from a relationship with a real girl, because I wasn't know what I was gonna do with her and I didn't have any desire, lust, energy because of already watching porn and masturbate.
This vicious circle caused more and more. social anxiety, low self-esteem, self-shame... When I look at a girl, was feeling like what I did is shameful, even looking, forget about approaching.
Reading about nofap stories and scientific researches about it shows me, this was causing most of my problems with changing plasticity of the brain. Doing a 6 months of nofap to see, how it will change.
AM6-1(4.19)--AM6-2(11.19)--SE-5.5G--AM6-3(9.20)--SE 5.5G(3.21)--AM6-S7(6.21)--SM3-1(7.2021)--AM6-4(1.2022)
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
