shannon i am being afraid of loosing my best friend... i dont know how it is in america but here in germany we respect our friends sisters they are not like other girls for us... we protect them and care about them...we have a saying here " dont piss where you eat and sleep" which means dont fuck the girls and women from the house where you eat and sleep
and yeah its true i am often afraid of the progress i am making with sm but not in this particular case... but then i aks myself when will the ogfs-script kick in ??? but i also have read your sm journal shannon and you had a lot of insecurities during sm too and you didnt use every chance...
and yeah i care about girls feelings since i am listenig to sm i have become much less of an asshole and more sensitive concering other peoples feelings its much different from the attitude i had with am... i am letting you brainwashing me dude so please dont give me the fault for my feelings...
however update: day 21.
at my work there is a gang of about 20 teenagers... they always make problems there today too so i went out and shouted at them and they immediately had respect and left the place without saying a word...it might have something to do with the auras
after i finished with my work the sister of my buddy came just by accident and in the train home we sat together and talked...she kept asking me questions about my past relationships about how i flirt and what kind of sex i like... it was very unusal for me because she was so offensive... but i was pretty cool and natural...she said thinks like..."you surely have no problem approaching any women you like" or "you are so attractive i dont understand why you dont have a girlfriend" or "you dont have to do anything women will surely come to you"
it was very interessting i noticed how strong she reacts if i look her deep in to the eyes when i talk to her...
i really cant wait to start with stage 4 i hope my fears and concernes about women and sex will decrease...
good night guys i go to sleep...
and yeah its true i am often afraid of the progress i am making with sm but not in this particular case... but then i aks myself when will the ogfs-script kick in ??? but i also have read your sm journal shannon and you had a lot of insecurities during sm too and you didnt use every chance...
and yeah i care about girls feelings since i am listenig to sm i have become much less of an asshole and more sensitive concering other peoples feelings its much different from the attitude i had with am... i am letting you brainwashing me dude so please dont give me the fault for my feelings...
however update: day 21.
at my work there is a gang of about 20 teenagers... they always make problems there today too so i went out and shouted at them and they immediately had respect and left the place without saying a word...it might have something to do with the auras
after i finished with my work the sister of my buddy came just by accident and in the train home we sat together and talked...she kept asking me questions about my past relationships about how i flirt and what kind of sex i like... it was very unusal for me because she was so offensive... but i was pretty cool and natural...she said thinks like..."you surely have no problem approaching any women you like" or "you are so attractive i dont understand why you dont have a girlfriend" or "you dont have to do anything women will surely come to you"
it was very interessting i noticed how strong she reacts if i look her deep in to the eyes when i talk to her...
i really cant wait to start with stage 4 i hope my fears and concernes about women and sex will decrease...
good night guys i go to sleep...
