10-27-2017, 03:41 PM
This happened before my last post.
There's an incredibly sexy trainer at my gym. Like 9/10. Seriously, she's hot. Because of the layout, we're usually on opposite ends. Once in a while I look over at her, and often she's looking in my direction. She was dating another trainer. He wasn't taller or bigger than me, but he was very macho/masculine the way he carried himself. Saw him in the change room once. He's well endowed. Anyways, he has since disappeared completely from the gym. Not sure what happened there.
Now she's not always training. Sometimes she's working out. The other day we were both working out in the same area. We exchanged glance a few times. Fast forward a little and we're within 10 feet of each other. We continue to exchange glances. Understand that I'm intimidated by her beauty. I'm doing something that has me facing one way and then the other. I can see through peripheral vision that she's checking me out while she thinks I can't see her. I try to play it cool between sets by not spending the whole time turned towards her. In reality I think I gave the impression that I was uncomfortable with knowing that I was being checked out. I seize up a little in situations like that. I become self-conscious.
More time passes and I look over. Her body language is open and inviting. Maybe this is me reading into it, but there was almost a little bit of frustration in her eyes. Ultimately, I finished my work and walked away. As usual, I did nothing. With girls like this I have a hard time believing that they're attracted to me. I don't feel like I'm on the same level. And the idea that I could associate sexually/romantically with a girl that attractive is difficult to process, let alone accept. So it's a self-esteem thing, but it also has to do with being inexperienced with women, and penis size (especially knowing her ex was a hung textbook alpha), and sexual stamina.
So yeah, there's a wall and I'm hitting it hard.
There's an incredibly sexy trainer at my gym. Like 9/10. Seriously, she's hot. Because of the layout, we're usually on opposite ends. Once in a while I look over at her, and often she's looking in my direction. She was dating another trainer. He wasn't taller or bigger than me, but he was very macho/masculine the way he carried himself. Saw him in the change room once. He's well endowed. Anyways, he has since disappeared completely from the gym. Not sure what happened there.
Now she's not always training. Sometimes she's working out. The other day we were both working out in the same area. We exchanged glance a few times. Fast forward a little and we're within 10 feet of each other. We continue to exchange glances. Understand that I'm intimidated by her beauty. I'm doing something that has me facing one way and then the other. I can see through peripheral vision that she's checking me out while she thinks I can't see her. I try to play it cool between sets by not spending the whole time turned towards her. In reality I think I gave the impression that I was uncomfortable with knowing that I was being checked out. I seize up a little in situations like that. I become self-conscious.
More time passes and I look over. Her body language is open and inviting. Maybe this is me reading into it, but there was almost a little bit of frustration in her eyes. Ultimately, I finished my work and walked away. As usual, I did nothing. With girls like this I have a hard time believing that they're attracted to me. I don't feel like I'm on the same level. And the idea that I could associate sexually/romantically with a girl that attractive is difficult to process, let alone accept. So it's a self-esteem thing, but it also has to do with being inexperienced with women, and penis size (especially knowing her ex was a hung textbook alpha), and sexual stamina.
So yeah, there's a wall and I'm hitting it hard.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
