11-12-2010, 05:06 AM
I finished stage three yesterday.One day into stage four.
Had some dreams vivid dreams last night.Also had some anxiety and insecurity
coming up.Felt weird,a bit like stage one.
Other than that I was very productive yesterday,stage three made it hard for me to put things off until later or watch TV.
I'm kinder to people now because I feel like it.
The thing is the changes seem to become the normal way of doing things
and seeing the world.So thinking back three months ago is like thinking about things that almost happened to someone else.
An interesting effect is when anxiety or fear about something comes up
I feel it and see it as an emotion and can look at it in a indifferent manner
and see what happens.It's there but doesn't take over.
Also I met my ex-GF yesterday,a random coincidence,I didn't care or felt anything.She tried to get attention,making small talk but I had better things to do.I don't think I can go back to my old ways now.
I guess I'll have to try some new things.
Had some dreams vivid dreams last night.Also had some anxiety and insecurity
coming up.Felt weird,a bit like stage one.
Other than that I was very productive yesterday,stage three made it hard for me to put things off until later or watch TV.
I'm kinder to people now because I feel like it.
The thing is the changes seem to become the normal way of doing things
and seeing the world.So thinking back three months ago is like thinking about things that almost happened to someone else.
An interesting effect is when anxiety or fear about something comes up
I feel it and see it as an emotion and can look at it in a indifferent manner
and see what happens.It's there but doesn't take over.
Also I met my ex-GF yesterday,a random coincidence,I didn't care or felt anything.She tried to get attention,making small talk but I had better things to do.I don't think I can go back to my old ways now.
I guess I'll have to try some new things.
