07-18-2011, 07:48 AM
Well, this is the last week of stage 3. I start stage 4 next Sunday.
I'm really getting into "let them come to you" as I feel no compelling need to pursue. I've had my up and downs in mood as well and have had a lot of sleepless nights. Whatever is in the script is really making my brain work extra hard.
It's rather odd for me because online I can spout off (most of the time) what I really like saying but in real life, I still feel like something is holding me back at times.
In the PB forums I can get really racy and the others in one particular thread are in awe of what I say at times. So I feel flat out confident saying stuff behind a keyboard but I haven't made that transition to real life yet (hmm time to visualize I guess, lol)
So in turn, I feel some resistance in saying exactly how I feel when I'm around others. Why? I don't know really. It must have been in my upbringing which at times wasn't too pleasant.
I am making a bigger effort to get to know my neighbours at the apartment complex. Not because I need to but just being friendly and wanting to get to know them.
I'm also experimenting around with theta tracks with my voice (guided visualizations). In a way, it's similar to self hypnosis. I'm still a novice when it comes to that but as I gain experience, the guided visualizations will get better in time.
Overall, I do feel more relaxed and comfortable with myself.
I'm really getting into "let them come to you" as I feel no compelling need to pursue. I've had my up and downs in mood as well and have had a lot of sleepless nights. Whatever is in the script is really making my brain work extra hard.
It's rather odd for me because online I can spout off (most of the time) what I really like saying but in real life, I still feel like something is holding me back at times.
In the PB forums I can get really racy and the others in one particular thread are in awe of what I say at times. So I feel flat out confident saying stuff behind a keyboard but I haven't made that transition to real life yet (hmm time to visualize I guess, lol)
So in turn, I feel some resistance in saying exactly how I feel when I'm around others. Why? I don't know really. It must have been in my upbringing which at times wasn't too pleasant.
I am making a bigger effort to get to know my neighbours at the apartment complex. Not because I need to but just being friendly and wanting to get to know them.
I'm also experimenting around with theta tracks with my voice (guided visualizations). In a way, it's similar to self hypnosis. I'm still a novice when it comes to that but as I gain experience, the guided visualizations will get better in time.
Overall, I do feel more relaxed and comfortable with myself.
Get your pickles!!!
