06-24-2011, 08:03 PM
Well, stage 3 is really kicking my butt bigtime. I have restless nights... have to take melatonin in order to get a decent nights sleep. I've been in a negative mood most of the day today but I just told myself the subliminal is bringing up more junk. The date last night was quite good save for one awkward moment (not going into details). I'll call her tomorrow for a bit of chit-chat but I'm not pressured to do so. I feel very non needy which is a good thing. In fact, I feel very indifferent.
I had a semi-cougar blonde eye me up in a grocery store last night when my date wasn't looking. It was obvious that she was looking right at me and smiling and I was thinking... ugh! Why now?!
And today at the hospital, one woman kept looking at me with a dirty sexual look while I was working at the newlife center and I was thinking, "geez girl, you want another one of those [babies]?" (she was carrying a baby in a carrier).
Also, I'm contemplating writing my "story" and reframing it a-la Brent Smith. My subconscious and / or ego is blocking me to do so but it's something that I really need to do in order to move forward.
I had a semi-cougar blonde eye me up in a grocery store last night when my date wasn't looking. It was obvious that she was looking right at me and smiling and I was thinking... ugh! Why now?!
And today at the hospital, one woman kept looking at me with a dirty sexual look while I was working at the newlife center and I was thinking, "geez girl, you want another one of those [babies]?" (she was carrying a baby in a carrier).
Also, I'm contemplating writing my "story" and reframing it a-la Brent Smith. My subconscious and / or ego is blocking me to do so but it's something that I really need to do in order to move forward.
Get your pickles!!!
