05-23-2011, 09:08 AM
Week 2 into stage 2. And thus far, stage 2 is significantly stronger than 1.
1. Sex drive increasing... trying to find ways to properly channel it (and one method being visualizing what I want which should be obvious considering the sub I'm listening to. Need not to go into details)
Waves of sex drive /arousal hit, then relax a bit, then hit again. I remember this from AOS but this is more intense. FAR more intense! And I'm learning to embrace the feeling instead of suppressing it (I embrace the feeling fine when I'm alone; the problem comes up at times when I'm out with others. More work needs to be done in that area...).
2. Self image much more positive.
3. Bantering getting better (when I'm in the mood). And it also depends on the person's personality.
4. My "bad boy" image wanting to be freed. I'm not really comfortable being a naughty boy yet. As with Cortez, SM2011 makes bold attempts to force me out of my comfort zone. Perhaps there is a small bit back in my mind that cares what others think? I need to let go of that, pronto!
And there is a bit where I'm wanting to show off my body (not to get attention or be needy but because I'm getting good results since going to the gym to work out)... and some weird desire to take up pole dancing, lol!
1. Sex drive increasing... trying to find ways to properly channel it (and one method being visualizing what I want which should be obvious considering the sub I'm listening to. Need not to go into details)
Waves of sex drive /arousal hit, then relax a bit, then hit again. I remember this from AOS but this is more intense. FAR more intense! And I'm learning to embrace the feeling instead of suppressing it (I embrace the feeling fine when I'm alone; the problem comes up at times when I'm out with others. More work needs to be done in that area...).
2. Self image much more positive.
3. Bantering getting better (when I'm in the mood). And it also depends on the person's personality.
4. My "bad boy" image wanting to be freed. I'm not really comfortable being a naughty boy yet. As with Cortez, SM2011 makes bold attempts to force me out of my comfort zone. Perhaps there is a small bit back in my mind that cares what others think? I need to let go of that, pronto!
And there is a bit where I'm wanting to show off my body (not to get attention or be needy but because I'm getting good results since going to the gym to work out)... and some weird desire to take up pole dancing, lol!
Get your pickles!!!
