Robstar's journey to alphahood

[robstar]

Alright enough. I've been putting off doing my own inner work for long enough time to stop waiting on the world to change.

[SargeMaximus]

You're in Croatia right now? Small world, so is my cousin. :o

[robstar]

You're in Croatia right now? Small world, so is my cousin. :o

Sure am bro! Hitting up a music festival tonight!

[SargeMaximus]

You're in Croatia right now? Small world, so is my cousin. :o

Sure am bro! Hitting up a music festival tonight!

That's crazy! I wonder if my cousin will be there? That'd be insane. lol

Have fun, don't forget to f*ck some croatia girls for me.

[robstar]

You're in Croatia right now? Small world, so is my cousin. :o

Sure am bro! Hitting up a music festival tonight!

That's crazy! I wonder if my cousin will be there? That'd be insane. lol

Have fun, don't forget to f*ck some croatia girls for me.

I'll see how I go man, my confidence is basically at nill at this point :/

[SargeMaximus]

Well that sucks. Any idea why?

[Dubls]

That's been my experience of AM6, even during the second run. Brutal when it breaks you down, and glorious when you're 'on'. And you can shift between those states in the same day.

[Geodude]

You're in Croatia right now? Small world, so is my cousin. :o

Sure am bro! Hitting up a music festival tonight!

That's crazy! I wonder if my cousin will be there? That'd be insane. lol

Have fun, don't forget to f*ck some croatia girls for me.

Croatian girl: "Why did we just have sex?"
Robstar: "...I did it for Sarge."

[Benjamin]

hahahaha with our powers combined we can also fuck some girls from other countries.. for you of course Sarge

[SargeMaximus]

hahahaha with our powers combined we can also **** some girls from other countries.. for you of course Sarge

Lol, make me proud men! leepy:

[robstar]

Hey guys. Long time no update! So, this sub is actually doing serious shit, and it took me getting back home to Melbourne to realise exactly what. Firstly, my general social confidence has vastly improved. I never realised that I had an undercurrent of anxiety around people until now that its gone. Walking around in public, talking to cashiers etc. all has a different feel now, I feel much more open and relaxed. There was a part of me that felt like strangers were threatening in the past, and it feels like thats gone.
Secondly, I'm more motivated to do shit with my life than I ever have been. And its a natural motivation, rather than forced like in the past. I washed a load of my clothes willingly for the first time today haha. I'm constantly thinking about what I want to do with my life, and I've decided the online diet and training consultant business is the way I want to go. I've realised that I have a passion for music and performing, and that's why I don't want to be reliant on it for money, I'd rather build a lifestyle that allows me to do that for fun and passion, and have a separate income that grants me freedom and self reliance.
I did poppy tea for the first time in six weeks last night, and it had a completely different feel from the past. I was no longer escaping, and although it felt pleasurable and enjoyable, it felt pointless, and not like something I'm craving to do again. That shocked me. I thought I would have to actively moderate and restrict my usage to like once a month so I wouldn't get physically dependent again, but now I don't even have a desire to do it that often. The idea of achieving things and working on myself is much more exciting.
Finally, on women, my feeling is, meh. I just don't care. And I don't mind that at all. I'm more interested in the thought of having good connections than sex right now, although I still don't plan on being monogamous
About a month ago, I was only considering running either SM or WM, but now for the first time, I'm considering BASE, to help me get started with my business.
Exciting times guys. Scary, some life anxiety at times, but exciting.
Occasionally I get hit with some life apathy, but when it clears, I'm great. Worlds apart from where I was at this point last run.

[robstar]

Aaaaaand, I'm stuck. I feel absolutely frozen in place. It's like I have this massive battle going on between the side of me that wants to be the productive person that I know I should, and the resistance, and I'm paralyzed between the two. What am I even resisting? I just don't know where to start.

[apollolux]

Aaaaaand, I'm stuck. I feel absolutely frozen in place. It's like I have this massive battle going on between the side of me that wants to be the productive person that I know I should, and the resistance, and I'm paralyzed between the two. What am I even resisting? I just don't know where to start.

I find it interesting that this is happening to you on AM6 around the same time it's happening to me on ASC. Maybe the stage you're on features a good sized chunk of the ASC scripting AM6 is said to have and we're reacting to the same thing? Or maybe there's a pre-existing belief that is very deeply held that AM6 is attempting to contradict at this time?

At least, that's the gist of why it's happening to me on ASC - the entire program is about becoming absolutely self-confident and not only did I not previously/do I not currently have a point of reference for such a thing, but I've had a severely deeply ingrained belief that being absolutely self-confident is akin to arrogance and hubris, therefore is extremely detrimental and "a bad thing."

What deeply held beliefs do you have that you suspect AM6 might even just graze by? The gravitational pull of such beliefs might just be strong enough to attract the attention of the sub.

[Dzemoo]

Hey guys. Long time no update! So, this sub is actually doing serious shit, and it took me getting back home to Melbourne to realise exactly what. Firstly, my general social confidence has vastly improved. I never realised that I had an undercurrent of anxiety around people until now that its gone. Walking around in public, talking to cashiers etc. all has a different feel now, I feel much more open and relaxed. There was a part of me that felt like strangers were threatening in the past, and it feels like thats gone.
Secondly, I'm more motivated to do shit with my life than I ever have been. And its a natural motivation, rather than forced like in the past. I washed a load of my clothes willingly for the first time today haha. I'm constantly thinking about what I want to do with my life, and I've decided the online diet and training consultant business is the way I want to go. I've realised that I have a passion for music and performing, and that's why I don't want to be reliant on it for money, I'd rather build a lifestyle that allows me to do that for fun and passion, and have a separate income that grants me freedom and self reliance.
I did poppy tea for the first time in six weeks last night, and it had a completely different feel from the past. I was no longer escaping, and although it felt pleasurable and enjoyable, it felt pointless, and not like something I'm craving to do again. That shocked me. I thought I would have to actively moderate and restrict my usage to like once a month so I wouldn't get physically dependent again, but now I don't even have a desire to do it that often. The idea of achieving things and working on myself is much more exciting.
Finally, on women, my feeling is, meh. I just don't care. And I don't mind that at all. I'm more interested in the thought of having good connections than sex right now, although I still don't plan on being monogamous
About a month ago, I was only considering running either SM or WM, but now for the first time, I'm considering BASE, to help me get started with my business.
Exciting times guys. Scary, some life anxiety at times, but exciting.
Occasionally I get hit with some life apathy, but when it clears, I'm great. Worlds apart from where I was at this point last run.

excactly like me, the only difference is that i am still not indifferent to women, but i consider myself a sex addict anyway...