Perfect Girlfriend Journal

[RainbowAbyss]

Well... consider. The program I used was seeking my "perfect lover". The subconscious is literal, so it looked for the woman who would be most sexually compatible with me for maximum sexual frequency, pleasure, cooperation and agreement as to what was desirable. Indeed, it found exactly that for me: whatever I like, she liked receiving from me or giving to me. Whatever I enjoy doing, she enjoyed doing with me. Whatever I want, she wanted too - or at least wanted to please me enough to try to keep up when she normally would not want to on her own. She was the perfect answer to me sexually.

Had I kept trying to specify quality X, Y and Z, I would never have thought to allow myself to meet a black woman, because I didn't consciously know that there were any black women who had certain qualities I need before I am attracted to a woman; in my area, it is extremely uncommon for black people to speak in my accent, which seems to be one of those things in my love map that I didn't realize until this happened. Certain accents turn me on, and certain accents turn me off, black or not. My own simply unlocks a particular door, and allows the woman to pass. There are other qualities, as well, but again, had I relied on my limited conscious mind, I would have found a much less good sexual match for myself, because my conscious mind is pathetically limited in awareness of the world around me in comparison to my subconscious mind, which has access to the collective awareness and thus can know about anyone and everyone on the planet!

I actually felt fear when I started that program because it was my first experiment in allowing my subconscious to choose for me, based on the "perfect" criteria. Previous, my experiments had been very complex affairs in which 20 or more traits would be carefully mapped out and specified all at once. While I always got exactly what I asked for that way, I never got exactly what I wanted, which is why I switched to the simpler way and allowed my more knowledgeable subconscious to find the right one for me based on my primary key (in this case, the best possible sexual lover for me at the time).

The subconscious has sometimes got different definitions, but more often it simply has access to vastly more information. I cannot know what my neighbor's personality is like behind closed doors, sexually, for instance, but my subconscious apparently can. The superconscious mind is the mind which we all seem to share access to, and through. Literally, I can (subconsciously) access this awareness and look for anything I want in a person, and quickly locate the best respondants worldwide, and then act on that knowledge.

I know that because of my previous experiments, which were impossible chance-wise, and were too consistent and specific in results. When I asked for the perfect naturally redheaded woman to come into my life, and then specified more than 20 physical qualities she should have down to the size, shape and color of her aureolas, etc. - did she show up? Yes she did. The only example of what I was asking for in the entire world, and I know that based on her geographical distance from me. My experiments show that the responder will always arrive from the closest possible distance for what you are asking for. She was literally around the world from me, in Australia.

As for the subliminal suggestion, it is possible to do that, but may be dangerous. We don't know what that would result in, or what that would do, if the subconscious has some sort of faulty logic based programming that we were unaware of previously. In many cases, the conscious disagreement with the subconscious is a god thing, because of the fact that the conscious understands logic and reasoning so much better in some ways.

This makes a lot of sense-the disparity between the preferences of the two seem important+if the subconscious can access more information than it would probably help the conscious in and/or the manifestation aspect. If it was simply a conscious manifestation there could be problems with satisfying the requirements of said manifestation i.e. 'perfect'

[Spiral]

Hey Wildflower still doing seek the challenge? If so what kind of challenges have you been seeking and succeeding in?

[Morgul]

I actually felt fear when I started that program because it was my first experiment in allowing my subconscious to choose for me, based on the "perfect" criteria. Previous, my experiments had been very complex affairs in which 20 or more traits would be carefully mapped out and specified all at once. While I always got exactly what I asked for that way, I never got exactly what I wanted, which is why I switched to the simpler way and allowed my more knowledgeable subconscious to find the right one for me based on my primary key (in this case, the best possible sexual lover for me at the time).

The subconscious has sometimes got different definitions, but more often it simply has access to vastly more information. I cannot know what my neighbor's personality is like behind closed doors, sexually, for instance, but my subconscious apparently can. The superconscious mind is the mind which we all seem to share access to, and through. Literally, I can (subconsciously) access this awareness and look for anything I want in a person, and quickly locate the best respondants worldwide, and then act on that knowledge.

I know that because of my previous experiments, which were impossible chance-wise, and were too consistent and specific in results. When I asked for the perfect naturally redheaded woman to come into my life, and then specified more than 20 physical qualities she should have down to the size, shape and color of her aureolas, etc. - did she show up? Yes she did. The only example of what I was asking for in the entire world, and I know that based on her geographical distance from me. My experiments show that the responder will always arrive from the closest possible distance for what you are asking for. She was literally around the world from me, in Australia.

As for the subliminal suggestion, it is possible to do that, but may be dangerous. We don't know what that would result in, or what that would do, if the subconscious has some sort of faulty logic based programming that we were unaware of previously. In many cases, the conscious disagreement with the subconscious is a god thing, because of the fact that the conscious understands logic and reasoning so much better in some ways.

Then bring in the super conscious too and give it full power of choice... I know you'll fear that too, haha, but that's fine, you'll learn to trust It has access to all knowledge, including what is absolutely perfect for you, beyond both conscious choices and subconscious programming. It brought me here

[Shannon]

I actually felt fear when I started that program because it was my first experiment in allowing my subconscious to choose for me, based on the "perfect" criteria. Previous, my experiments had been very complex affairs in which 20 or more traits would be carefully mapped out and specified all at once. While I always got exactly what I asked for that way, I never got exactly what I wanted, which is why I switched to the simpler way and allowed my more knowledgeable subconscious to find the right one for me based on my primary key (in this case, the best possible sexual lover for me at the time).

The subconscious has sometimes got different definitions, but more often it simply has access to vastly more information. I cannot know what my neighbor's personality is like behind closed doors, sexually, for instance, but my subconscious apparently can. The superconscious mind is the mind which we all seem to share access to, and through. Literally, I can (subconsciously) access this awareness and look for anything I want in a person, and quickly locate the best respondants worldwide, and then act on that knowledge.

I know that because of my previous experiments, which were impossible chance-wise, and were too consistent and specific in results. When I asked for the perfect naturally redheaded woman to come into my life, and then specified more than 20 physical qualities she should have down to the size, shape and color of her aureolas, etc. - did she show up? Yes she did. The only example of what I was asking for in the entire world, and I know that based on her geographical distance from me. My experiments show that the responder will always arrive from the closest possible distance for what you are asking for. She was literally around the world from me, in Australia.

As for the subliminal suggestion, it is possible to do that, but may be dangerous. We don't know what that would result in, or what that would do, if the subconscious has some sort of faulty logic based programming that we were unaware of previously. In many cases, the conscious disagreement with the subconscious is a god thing, because of the fact that the conscious understands logic and reasoning so much better in some ways.

Then bring in the super conscious too and give it full power of choice... I know you'll fear that too, haha, but that's fine, you'll learn to trust It has access to all knowledge, including what is absolutely perfect for you, beyond both conscious choices and subconscious programming. It brought me here

Well, I believe that the superconscious mind is automatically accessed for help completing "assignments" the subconscious itself cannot complete... which would mean that accessing the superconscious while using a manifestation sub is automatic. The superconscious has access to a sort of "global awareness" that we all tap into, but the subconscious mind appears to be localized to the individual body.

[smash]

Yeah, what happened to this journal? This is a very interesting title to me, tell me, what is going on right here, Wildflower ;-).

[WildFlower]

Yeah, what happened to this journal? This is a very interesting title to me, tell me, what is going on right here, Wildflower ;-).

I'm still going . It just isn't a title, unlike others, which warrants regular updates. It's pretty 'samey' if you know what I mean.

It's definitely affecting me emotionally. Or at least something is affecting me emotionally. I've had this sense of longing for a girlfriend, tinged with a degree of loneliness. It isn't prominent, but it is there in the background and does reveal itself to me as an issue quite often during moments of solitude. I've grown to become envious of middle aged men with wives and children. Which is in contrast to a year ago when I felt envious of those who got sex more than I did. Contrary to how it may seem, I see this loneliness as a positive - it isn't a self pitying loneliness, but rather a loneliness designed to show me what are my priorities. Getting a deep, meaningful relationship has become one of several priorities in my life and I'm focused on achieving it. Rather than it being something I want to achieve in the future it's something I want to achieve now. This sense of urgency and impatience is what seems to be driving the longing.

I was out last night and a girl I've had sex with in the past was texting me wanting to tag along. I let her and we ended up alone kissing. I then got a text from another group of friends who had just got back into town from a gig they'd been to and they wanted to meet up. This girl was begging me to back to hers and fuck her (and boy does she fuck well) but I just wasn't interested. I was going through the motions kissing her; I was kissing her because I could, not because I wanted to or because it meant anything. So I had to make up an excuse and leave her. Being with my friends was more appealing to me than guaranteed sex. Such is my life. This wasn't the case on sex magnet, it's the change in priority the girlfriend sub has brought upon me (but baring in mind I chose to use the girlfriend sub precisely because I want a girlfriend the change in priorities was already under way before I started using it.)

I met an older guy - mid thirties - from Kuwait on the train back up from London, who, because of his age, felt obliged to offer me some wisdom. One of the things he said was 'you will not meet your future wife in a pub or club' which I thought was quite poignant. Work offers me very little in the way of chances to meet girls, and I don't plan on leaving that job anytime soon. So where am I to meet girlfriend material type girls if not at work, at the pubs, or at the clubs? There's the gym, there's yoga classes, there are friends of friends. Several girls have shown up in these areas recently, but it's far to early to say if they'll lead to anything.

I hope this post doesn't sound like I'm trying to methodically or analytically get a girlfriend - I'm not. For the most part I'm just living my life, whilst consciously remaining open and expectant for opportunities which may open doors to let the right girl into my life. I'll let you guys know if anything major happens anytime soon.

[Shannon]

I have been coming up on ready to settle down in the last few years, and finding ways to meet women who are worth a lifelong investment has not been easy. He is right, pubs and clubs do not have wife material in them, and anyone who wants a worthwhile girlfriend will be hard pressed at best to find her in such an environment as well. I am finding that the best way to meet quality women is to figure out what such a woman is likely to do with her time... and go there.

Yoga is good. Gym can be good. Friends of friends is a very good way to meet quality women, depending on the caliber of friends. If you have a community center, where they have activities for people, see what else is available. Dancing classes are good, fencing classes are good, and so on. Try to figure out what it is she will enjoy doing, and then meet her on that turf.

[WildFlower]

The (semi) belief I have in the reality of the experiences I'm about to describe would sound odd and out-of-character to my friends and family if I told them about them. 'what've you done with the old WildFlower!', is how they'd react, I imagine.

Whilst I was reading the other day, I read the world telephone, and, simultaneously, the phone rang. Whilst I was driving to work today, the woman on the radio said Hanson where her favorite band, I looked out the window a second later, and a van drove past with the logo Hanson written on the side of it. Last weekend I picked up a project I hadn't been working on for over a year, I decided to pick it up and work on it at random, and I kept the fact I was back working on it to myself. Some how, though, my brother asked me a few days later 'whatever happened to that project you where working on?'. I was talking to someone about how the supermarket sainsbury's screws farmers and it's other suppliers over by paying them less and less for their produce (this is something which hasn't been in the press for nearly a year, and when it was in the press, it wasn't a prominent headline). The day later, we where both sat down and on came the chief from sainsbury's taking questions from an aggressive woman about why it screws it's suppliers.

These, perhaps, may not seem significant to some, but to me it's a paradigm shift. They have all happened to me in the past week. And I just find it odd that I've suddenly started to notice these little coincidences and Jungian synchronicity's. Maybe it because I've been reading a lot of Paul Auster - in my mind the greatest living novelist - who explores the nature of coincidences a lot. But then again, I may have been drawn to him as a meta-coincidence. What's most interesting is that I started noticing these coincidences prior to any paradigm shift, and I'm still unsure if there has, or hasn't, been a paradigm shift yet. It's like nothing has changed in my life, yet I keep noticing these weird coincidences.

This relates, I think, to my journey on this subliminal. And perhaps I'm becoming more receptive to the idea of 'manifestation'. A girl, who started my yoga class maybe 6-8 weeks ago, is really starting to get me interested. The first 2 weeks I thought she was pretty, but I definitely didn't consider her the ideal image of 'my perfect girlfriend'. Week by week, though, I've become more and more convinced that she is. In fact I've become convinced she's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen; both physically and how she carries herself. Yesterday whilst I was trying to go to sleep, I felt this huge warmness in my heart chakra as I tried - but failed - to get her out of my mind. She's dark skinned, tall, feminine and agile; I don't know if she is my 'perfect girlfriend' but she's definitely the most 'perfect' girl I've come across over the course of this journey so far. I can tell she is attracted to me, at least to some degree, and I'm desperate to get to know her better. I can't consciously describe what set's her apart, especially as I'm not prone to these whims of desire. It could be a crush, but it's pretty overwhelming and severe if it is.

I also realised today how much female attention I have if I want it; I'm currently texting four girls who are either friends who are attracted to me, or girls I've been involved in previously. I've got girls on board and girls on deck. Like I said in my previous post, none of this interests me anymore.

[Morgul]

Your last post is very interesting, WildFlower.

It feels accurate to me that "there are no coincidences, everything is causality". Things like that have happened to me a lot over my life, it's like nudges from our subconscious, showing that there's a beauty working behind everything we can experience.

A friend of mine told me, that that "magic of synchronicity" is extremely common during "El camino de Santiago" peregrination, where every single day you're amazed by several of those weird coincidences... that's a huge limiting belief buster.

People that are very clear manifest things very easily by using that same principle. For example, Cory Skyy: he sets an intention of the kind of woman he feels like meeting next, and goes around his own things (no longer thinking about that)... Then he goes somewhere, and magic! There is the girl he chose, haha If he did nothing about her, he goes somewhere else, and magic again! There is another girl just like her, It happens to him all the time.

[Cortez]

I actually have met some great girls at bars. It's certainly the exception and not the rule, however.