Path to Greatness - Journal

[Javier Gerardo]

Javier as i read your next post, this is not the issue. I can almost guarrantee 100% its fear, like virgin times lol
Thoughts go thorough your head like, "will i be good enough?" and "am i gonna last long enough?"
Man i had those times when i was a teen, she would be laying there with open legs, naked, (dunno if this is appropriate lol) and ready to receive, but it was my first time, and i cant get it up hahahhahaha. im like hold on a minute, i go into the bathroom and try to "help" it up lol. no luck, but im sure smoking the Newports and drinking, not eating for the last half a day, just coming off a 12 hour shift didnt help the situation. but after a while i got comfortable and all was better. although the hunger really really got to me as i couldnt keep up the activity for very long. young and dumb lol.

Yeah bro I'm still a virgin. Even though I'm kind of ashamed with it before, Shannon and others have made me realize to let it go and stop thinking about it too much. It is even quite positive in some way. As such, over the past year I've been here, I've been able to go out of my comfort zone and finally have fun socializing.

Now what you said is true bro. Thoughts like "Am I going to last long" spring through my mind as I am about to do it and I got excited.
I believe I can man! I believe that I can do this. But still there's always inside my head telling me I can't and so on. That's making me depressed on so on. I used to have depression roughly 3 years ago. I was a wreck back then. No job, no job experience, poor social skills, unfit and skinny. It's a good thing I manage to improve myself and get to the point where I am now. It wasn't easy, but it was worth it.

Yea my brothers porn is a very bastardly thing.
Javier my man, i think the only thing that can help you is to be comfortable before you begin the procedure. If you feel pressure theres no way Javier Jr is getting up in a tense situation lol
She needs to work with you, help you relax, alot of foreplay couldnt hurt.
Its fear fear and more fear, i can guarantee you that a specific sub will help you for this. Get on that right away bro, i hope your girl will understand.
Tell her you are so attracted to her that you are ready to bust it as soon as you touch her, and since you dont want to finish too soon, your mind shuts down your erection as to prevent this. Maybe she will understand and help you relax, turn down the lights, turn on some smooth jazz, light some lavender candles to relax, maybe drink a glass of wine for comfort. You have to work together in these moments

So the bigger problem is PE not ED? Because ED seems like a worse thing.
Have you tried busting a nut before you engage in the activity?
Bust a nut, then 30 minutes later start doing what you gotta do with the lady, and you wont finish so fast. This is only if you have PE.
If you have trouble with ED the PE every time then dont fap before the activity. For ED you have to feel no pressure. Sub would be the way to go bro

I will soon be getting the Overcome Fear, Guilt and Shame sub. I hope it definitely helps my condition. As I see it, my fear have seeped in to different aspects of my life as well. This causes me anxiety over the long term.

Yes it seems that I am really attracted to her that I have problems controlling myself. As such I think I cannot control it so I disabled my attraction towards her that makes me have a hard time getting it hard. Thus making me think I have Erectile Dysfunction instead of Premature Ejaculation. Now knowing my problem is already half of it. For the solution I've been doing Reverse Kegel exercises. I have high hopes that it will help me in my condition. Also, as you said I need to relax when doing it. I need to be honest with my girlfriend the next time we do it because before I just seem to fake my confidence well in fact, my heart was beating so fast and I can hardly control myself.

Lastly, I kind of tried to fap a few minutes before doing it though it only made my libido much lower. I couldn't keep my erection. Probably busting a nut earlier during the day would help?

Thanks a lot for the advice bro.

Thanks K-train
And i agree to what K-Train says about the PSE lol
I listened to it all night on a loop during sleep, and i wake up in the morning and walk by the tv and there were just females talking. But I cant help but stare like a crazy animal that just hibernated for 10 years and needs a release, and they werent even attractive lol

I will still try listening to PSE just once to have an increase in libido.