Patching the Druid - DMSI report (331D)

[Voytek]

Day 94
All right, I've increased the volume by 20% and now it seems to work much better. Keep doing the sub.

[Greenduck]

Day 87

I don't care about being an alpha any more. When I was doing AM6 I tried to be one and didn't allow people to treat me bad. Now I'm indifferent and just keep going if they're bad to me. Also I don't care about qualifying women (on that scale 1-10). If a woman is interested in me and she's nice and nice to look at I just "invite" her to my bed. I feel really calm and at peace with myself, it's super easy for me to express my sexual interest and sexual intentions to women. I feel my very core is getting really solid. The funny thing is, I was right about to give up on the sub since I didn't see any external results but they're coming to me step by step according to the advancement in my very core power

Same here regarding the not caring about being an alpha anymore. It feels weird. New territory. I realize just now how much stuff ive let go tbh.

Sounds like you both have moved from an outer to inner locus of control...

[Voytek]

Day 108
I'm going to give up on the sub tomorrow since it doesn't do anything more to me than depriving me of a good sleep and making me exhausted. I don't feel it's doing anything good to me and there're no external results at all. I wonder why the previous version gave me a lot of results during three days while I was using it and the current version is a huge disappoitnemnt. I shall wait till I see the next version doing its job.

[Voytek]

It seems to me it lacks of the bad boy edge and it should make you more sexually expansive/aggresive. In my opinion it makes you too emotional and too women friendly. You're trying to be too noble to women whereas you should be a bit of a villain too.

[Voytek]

AM6, WM2 and SM3 gave me a lot of great results but the current DMSI version is... a massive failure. I might do a refresher or just wait for DMSI working as it should. In general, DMSI made me feel like a nonentity and being detached from reality.

[Voytek]

DMSI has done some deal of inner work for me but if it comes to external results it sucks apart from people being more friendly and respectful to me. I've been using the current version for over three months to no avail so I don't see any reason to keep doing it. It's a beta version and it sucks and should be improved. The end of the story.

[Voytek]

Day 111
I've recently moved from HCM city (Vietnam) to Thailand which is a huge life shift for me. In HCM city I had a 4,5h/week job and no friends and here there're some white NES female teachers and a job at an elite primary school and some Thai girls who I've met online and want to meet me so I'll try to stick to the training for a while and see how it goes. You can't fish in the desert but now I'm at a pond of fish. But still the former version was doing its external job for me even though I was using it for three days only.

[Greenduck]

I have done no-fap since the beginning of the year, and I have experienced much less sexual drive than I had before. It's called the flatline in the community, which is really your mind resetting the to the way it should be aroused rather then the synthetic "sexdrive" that is caused by masturbation and porn. Maybe you are experiencing something like that as a result of some deeper healing.

[Voytek]

I have done no-fap since the beginning of the year, and I have experienced much less sexual drive than I had before. It's called the flatline in the community, which is really your mind resetting the to the way it should be aroused rather then the synthetic "sexdrive" that is caused by masturbation and porn. Maybe you are experiencing something like that as a result of some deeper healing.

You might be right since even thought I would like to deny that but I kept being wounded when I was a kid and I used to suppress the pain instead of letting it go. It was related to sexual issues too like suppressing my sexuality and escaping into masturbation.

[Greenduck]

I have done no-fap since the beginning of the year, and I have experienced much less sexual drive than I had before. It's called the flatline in the community, which is really your mind resetting the to the way it should be aroused rather then the synthetic "sexdrive" that is caused by masturbation and porn. Maybe you are experiencing something like that as a result of some deeper healing.

You might be right since even thought I would like to deny that but I kept being wounded when I was a kid and I used to suppress the pain instead of letting it go. It was related to sexual issues too like suppressing my sexuality and escaping into masturbation.

I have some of the same issues. Deep shame and fear related to sexuality, probably something inherited from parents who haven’t dealt with their own issues. I would say keep the healing going and let it take the time that it needs.

Miłego weekendu

[Voytek]

It's weird but I stopped to use it four days ago and today I was really socially anxious (not all the time but there were many moments when I felt it) and when one woman, whom I had been usually comfortable around, made me blush. Blush! It hasn't happened to me for ages. I feel as if all my former runs (AM, the Magnets) were done in vain.

[Voytek]

I used the sub last night and everything seems to has gone back to "normal".