01-30-2026, 09:47 PM
PTSD Recovery Aid (Round 2)
Cycle 1
Day 1: 01/30/26 (last: 01/20/26)
Next Cycle: 02/09/26
Current Setup:
Ultrasonic - iPhone 11 - Arms Length
--Cycle 1--
Default Instructions:
~Regular PTSD Instructions~
- 11/16 Volume (iPhone)
- 7 days on - 3 days off
- 30 minutes (1 full loop)
This morning:
Feeling "blah". Kind of wondering what's the point of anything but awakening or self actualization since these are the only things that last. Only wanting to be sustained from within and not draw from others. Kind of just general ascetic urges and thoughts so far. Didn't get much sleep and have actually been on a slight sleep deficit for a few weeks now. I'm kinda just tired of caring about shit that doesn't matter. I just want to drop all the bullshit and only focus on what matters. My values, not my psychological "cancer". With other people I want real connection, not to try to get my needs met through them. I want to want the right things and to discard what doesn't matter.
Night time:
Feeling a lot better now at night. I spent my day off enjoying myself on a drive and eating out. Once I got some food in me I felt amazing (thanks LTU6, ever since I ran you I enjoy the little things a lot more!) Listened to my loop a bit ago and I feel great. Most of the time I feel better after listening to a loop. Looking forward to this run.
Cycle 1
Day 1: 01/30/26 (last: 01/20/26)
Next Cycle: 02/09/26
Current Setup:
Ultrasonic - iPhone 11 - Arms Length
--Cycle 1--
Default Instructions:
~Regular PTSD Instructions~
- 11/16 Volume (iPhone)
- 7 days on - 3 days off
- 30 minutes (1 full loop)
This morning:
Feeling "blah". Kind of wondering what's the point of anything but awakening or self actualization since these are the only things that last. Only wanting to be sustained from within and not draw from others. Kind of just general ascetic urges and thoughts so far. Didn't get much sleep and have actually been on a slight sleep deficit for a few weeks now. I'm kinda just tired of caring about shit that doesn't matter. I just want to drop all the bullshit and only focus on what matters. My values, not my psychological "cancer". With other people I want real connection, not to try to get my needs met through them. I want to want the right things and to discard what doesn't matter.
Night time:
Feeling a lot better now at night. I spent my day off enjoying myself on a drive and eating out. Once I got some food in me I felt amazing (thanks LTU6, ever since I ran you I enjoy the little things a lot more!) Listened to my loop a bit ago and I feel great. Most of the time I feel better after listening to a loop. Looking forward to this run.

