09-29-2010, 12:20 PM
Today pretty much sucked, woke up not feeling that centered and had tremendous social anxiety throughout the day, eye contact and focusing was a real problem, was more a burden while previous days it was spot on. I even avoided a group that was walking towards me, and headed quickly into another street because I couldn’t handle the thought that they were perhaps thinking something negative about me, even though I was sure I looked good. I also took it everything pretty personal like for example when someone passed me in traffic, the first thought that popped up was they thought I was a bad driver, even though I was following the speed limit and it was rush hour… It was really hard to get rid of thoughts like that. Crap mentality.
I think I have to stop watching those damn Asian exhibitionists and public nudists to keep my testosterone up. I’m starting to see a pattern of feeling worse the day after a fap session. Tomorrow I will feel better I'm sure.
On a lighter note, I’m noticing that the small hairs are starting to grow, and I’m pretty excited about that. You can only feel it, but from what I’ve read is that it starts with white downy hair, and eventually grows into normal hair. This is really amazing, and it's great to see progress already
I think I have to stop watching those damn Asian exhibitionists and public nudists to keep my testosterone up. I’m starting to see a pattern of feeling worse the day after a fap session. Tomorrow I will feel better I'm sure.
On a lighter note, I’m noticing that the small hairs are starting to grow, and I’m pretty excited about that. You can only feel it, but from what I’ve read is that it starts with white downy hair, and eventually grows into normal hair. This is really amazing, and it's great to see progress already
