02-02-2023, 04:37 PM
Quote:As for now after about to be on my 4th day of listen I have had major changes. I think because I have used so many different versions of OF but as I figured the guilt and shame were keeping some of the fears in place. However once I started listening to this sub it was like the flood gates opened and what fears were being close to being eradicated were. Also it got rid of the second reason I was plateauing. The guilt and shame were keeping the fear of changing in place and there was a lot of guilt and shame associated with changing myself in the first place. So basically this sub was exactly what I needed. its funny while listening one time something just clicked and I said "Why am I feeling guilt, shame, and fear in the first place? These emotions only help others but doesn't serve myself at all. Also they are open to wide spread abuse by others". It was like I was able to see clearly in my own life and the lives of others how insidiously some people use these emotions to manipulate others to get what they want out of them. When that clicked in I just said I wasn't going to feel these emotions for anyone else anymore. If the only way someone can get me to do something is through guilt, shame, and fear tactics then they are just trying to use me. If they weren't they would be able to use logic, reasoning and pro/cons to get me to their side. I can say without a doubt those feelings are practically minimum at this point.
I might add on top of that that I can feel the special aura for this sub as well. I just feel it flowing throughout my entire body and I do very much like it. I feel very calm and collected. Nothing really shakes me much at the moment. One other thing which I only noticed today is that with each passing day I keep feeling happier and happier. I think I had some guilt or shame about being in a happy mood. As if I didn't deserve it or I was shamed for being so. So I just shut myself down because of it.
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