02-14-2016, 05:38 PM
Day 16:
Ive become more aware of when Im resistant to doing something. Its funny all the things I find myself doing when I dont want to do something. Mainly hang out on these forums haha. But, Ive just let myself just go with the flow of it. Last night it took me a couple of hours but I still got online and applied for a job and today I had to make a phone call to my old workplace and I was a little resistant to it, but it only took me 15 minutes before I just got it out of the way.
Im definitely making progress in regards to getting stuff done. Its making less sense to avoid things.
Im also noticing how much I cared what people thought of me. So much of my behaviour has been centered on approval. I used to be ashamed/guilty/fearful (likely all 3) of alot of aspects of me, without me even realising;
My ability to just say what I feel, ask for what I want, no nonsense. Even just my desire to get out in the world and do things, make things happen, work hard, make money, invest in myself, take risks, meet new people etc. This is that masculine energy I was talking about in an earlier post. Im also feeling alot more creative.
As all this is shifting in me, Ive noticed people being more respectful towards me.
Shannon, I wanted to let you know that with all the changes so far, there has been this feeling that things no longer make sense for me and that Ive outgrown them. I understand that you redesigned the script towards that direction so I wanted to let you know its working.
Ive become more aware of when Im resistant to doing something. Its funny all the things I find myself doing when I dont want to do something. Mainly hang out on these forums haha. But, Ive just let myself just go with the flow of it. Last night it took me a couple of hours but I still got online and applied for a job and today I had to make a phone call to my old workplace and I was a little resistant to it, but it only took me 15 minutes before I just got it out of the way.
Im definitely making progress in regards to getting stuff done. Its making less sense to avoid things.
Im also noticing how much I cared what people thought of me. So much of my behaviour has been centered on approval. I used to be ashamed/guilty/fearful (likely all 3) of alot of aspects of me, without me even realising;
My ability to just say what I feel, ask for what I want, no nonsense. Even just my desire to get out in the world and do things, make things happen, work hard, make money, invest in myself, take risks, meet new people etc. This is that masculine energy I was talking about in an earlier post. Im also feeling alot more creative.
As all this is shifting in me, Ive noticed people being more respectful towards me.
Shannon, I wanted to let you know that with all the changes so far, there has been this feeling that things no longer make sense for me and that Ive outgrown them. I understand that you redesigned the script towards that direction so I wanted to let you know its working.
